Oh, I don't know what I came back for. I had to see your face once more. I guess I missed you.
As I expressed in my last entry, I'm really pleased with my life right now.
I guess I'm just finally feeling really lonely. I feel like I've been able to ignore it because I've had a lot of school work and stuff. But now, with SOL week and really nothing to do, I've started to notice how alone I feel all the time. And I really mean all the time. Like if I had something really exciting happen to me and I just had to call someone and tell them right away, I have no clue who I would call. And I hate not knowing that.
My last soccer game is tomorrow. I'm actually kind of upset. I love my soccer team- more than I can accurately express in words. We've been together since 1st grade and I've really grown up with these girls. This season was really crazy- we all had a lot of other things going on and everyone missed a lot of practices and games. If Randy doesn't keep coaching, we won't have a team. I really hope he agrees to stay.
Like I was saying before, I've been feeling really lonely lately. And it's made me think a lot about last year and how I was never like this. I was always surrounded by my best friends. Shannon, Emily, April, Madeline. We were always together. I always had Jordan and Alex. I always had Caitlin and Becca and Olivia. I really miss feeling like people want to hang out with me all the time. I feel like now I just get in people's way- like I'm not really wanted. I don't know. I just, I don't feel good about my social life right now.
In other news, my dance recital is coming up and because of it my schedule is kind of crazy for the next 2 weeks. It's already sold out, so sorry if you wanted to come. Not that anyone reads this anymore except Olivia and she's in the recital, so it really doesn't matter that it's sold out. Ha. Another great example of how many devoted friends currently I have.
Chorus concert next Thursday. Show Choir will be AWESOME as always. What a joke.
I'm tired. I need to go to sleep before my bitter sarcasm takes over this entry.
I guess I'm just finally feeling really lonely. I feel like I've been able to ignore it because I've had a lot of school work and stuff. But now, with SOL week and really nothing to do, I've started to notice how alone I feel all the time. And I really mean all the time. Like if I had something really exciting happen to me and I just had to call someone and tell them right away, I have no clue who I would call. And I hate not knowing that.
My last soccer game is tomorrow. I'm actually kind of upset. I love my soccer team- more than I can accurately express in words. We've been together since 1st grade and I've really grown up with these girls. This season was really crazy- we all had a lot of other things going on and everyone missed a lot of practices and games. If Randy doesn't keep coaching, we won't have a team. I really hope he agrees to stay.
Like I was saying before, I've been feeling really lonely lately. And it's made me think a lot about last year and how I was never like this. I was always surrounded by my best friends. Shannon, Emily, April, Madeline. We were always together. I always had Jordan and Alex. I always had Caitlin and Becca and Olivia. I really miss feeling like people want to hang out with me all the time. I feel like now I just get in people's way- like I'm not really wanted. I don't know. I just, I don't feel good about my social life right now.
In other news, my dance recital is coming up and because of it my schedule is kind of crazy for the next 2 weeks. It's already sold out, so sorry if you wanted to come. Not that anyone reads this anymore except Olivia and she's in the recital, so it really doesn't matter that it's sold out. Ha. Another great example of how many devoted friends currently I have.
Chorus concert next Thursday. Show Choir will be AWESOME as always. What a joke.
I'm tired. I need to go to sleep before my bitter sarcasm takes over this entry.