Head is spinning.. either that or the room is..

[allislost13]

Today.. was a hit in the face.. I moment of reality that I didn't want to go through for any recent time. But it was needed.. as much as we didn't want it to end.. thats the only thing that was going to happen. But like he said.. I'm just a girlfriend.. thats all I am.. just the girlfriend.. what a way to put it.. most people would do the same thing and say.. "he's just a boyfriend" but I can't do that.. he wasn't just a boyfriend, he was one of my best friends.. one person I could go to and talk about anything to.. the one person who made me laugh on the days that were black and the nights that were cold. I still want that, just in a friendship.. I know it's cheesy and it's what everyone says but it's the truth.. my heart is racing and my eyes are watering to the fact that he might not want to be friends anymore because I hurt him.. I'm sorry, I can't say that enough, I really can't. I hope you know I care.. and if thats all you know at the end of this.. then so be it.. but I'd love to have your friendship with me in the long journal ahead of me..

I dunno if anyone can figure out from this but Danny and I aren't together anymore.. I don't want sympathy if thats what you're willing to give.. I know you're all sorry but I'm more sorry than anyone could be.. =/

[Nick, if you're saying in the back of your head, "stop being emo" I'm not, I just needed to get that out. lol]

Later Kiddos <3