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i dont know if i can wait 11 days. i want to go home now, not later.
im having such big problems. i cant find my place here, and i cant for the life of me be happy. i even found myself in a bad mood sometimes when brandon was here, which is the time im supposed to be happiest. im sick of the food here, im sick of my classes, im sick of my stupid job, im sick of living here, im sick of not really having friends, or people to hang out with, im sick of basically being stuck here, im sick of tacoma. i just really dislike it here. really badly.
i smile and laugh sometimes, but i also cry a whole lot more than is probably normal.
its my mom's birthday and i dont get to see her. i didnt think that would make me this upset, but it does.
i have a spanish test at one. i feel ready for it, and im hoping i am, i really want to do well. im sick of not doing well in school. i need to do well in order to transfer.
i cant stay here, i just cant. that campus is gorgeous, i love allison, i love spending all my time in her room and coloring. but thats about all i love. i cant stay for 2 reasons. everything else about this place is stupid.
i miss my friends. i had the best friends ever. i want them back. im so sick of being alone.
im having such big problems. i cant find my place here, and i cant for the life of me be happy. i even found myself in a bad mood sometimes when brandon was here, which is the time im supposed to be happiest. im sick of the food here, im sick of my classes, im sick of my stupid job, im sick of living here, im sick of not really having friends, or people to hang out with, im sick of basically being stuck here, im sick of tacoma. i just really dislike it here. really badly.
i smile and laugh sometimes, but i also cry a whole lot more than is probably normal.
its my mom's birthday and i dont get to see her. i didnt think that would make me this upset, but it does.
i have a spanish test at one. i feel ready for it, and im hoping i am, i really want to do well. im sick of not doing well in school. i need to do well in order to transfer.
i cant stay here, i just cant. that campus is gorgeous, i love allison, i love spending all my time in her room and coloring. but thats about all i love. i cant stay for 2 reasons. everything else about this place is stupid.
i miss my friends. i had the best friends ever. i want them back. im so sick of being alone.