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So... this is a general head's up.
It really does seem that dad's gonna die soon. We don't know how or when but my sister says he's slipping away.
With that in mind, and considering how I was with mom's death afterwards, chances are that I'm not going to have enough spoons for a while to deal with other people's issues with their parents. I'm not saying this to be bitchy about it, but, being honest with myself, for the first whole year after mom died, whenever someone I knew had troubles with their mother, my basic instinct was to tell them to shut the hell up and stop being ingrates even when I knew the situation was bad.
I'm not saying this will happen, but even now with dad still alive, the past few days I've been unable to read personal posts because they end up making me sob and cry for half an hour.
So, people, if I'm not commenting on your problems or offering you support or something, it's not that I don't care and it's not that you're not important. It's just that, right now, I really, really can't deal with it. I can barely deal with myself.
Sorry for this, guys. But I thought I should let you know.
It really does seem that dad's gonna die soon. We don't know how or when but my sister says he's slipping away.
With that in mind, and considering how I was with mom's death afterwards, chances are that I'm not going to have enough spoons for a while to deal with other people's issues with their parents. I'm not saying this to be bitchy about it, but, being honest with myself, for the first whole year after mom died, whenever someone I knew had troubles with their mother, my basic instinct was to tell them to shut the hell up and stop being ingrates even when I knew the situation was bad.
I'm not saying this will happen, but even now with dad still alive, the past few days I've been unable to read personal posts because they end up making me sob and cry for half an hour.
So, people, if I'm not commenting on your problems or offering you support or something, it's not that I don't care and it's not that you're not important. It's just that, right now, I really, really can't deal with it. I can barely deal with myself.
Sorry for this, guys. But I thought I should let you know.