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So I finished Merlin. Considering my new header and my new moodtheme, it's fairly safe to say that I adored it. Sopretty. And I'm still most likely going to be writing a HP/Merlin crossover because the ideas, they just won't shut up.
And I have so many ideas, and so many GOOD fics to read and ooooh, it had been such a long time since I actually shipped the main ship in a fandom. Which is not to say that it's the only thing that motivates me, but still. Is nice to be able to read stuff in a fandom without bemoaning that your favorite character (Merlin) doesn't get enough stuff.
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And now, in something else, friending in my journal.
As I mentioned before, people are free to friend me, which is not to say that I have to friend back. I'm not an interesting person. I'm a young woman who's getting out of her depression and getting back on her life, but I doubt that, for the people that just find my journal, that's very interesting. What is interesting? It might be by fangirling or my thoughts about some series. Other than that? Not really. I'm sure that most of you found me through fics, which is why I have a community for fics, icons and the like.
When I friend someone it's usually because we've been talking for a while and there's common interest, or a certain empathy. I'm not an easy person to talk to, mostly because I don't open too much to others. The things that are locked are my most personal things, not because I want to come out as perfect but because it's MY sadness and I have the right to choose who to show it to. It's sadness about my mother's loss, about my family, about friends long gone. Most of the time, I do my best not to talk about others behind cuts, mostly because it's a lie. The few times I've done so is because I realize I'm complaining about MY pet peeves and I see no point on causing drama about that.
I can understand having different political points of view. I think that, in my FList, the one person that I agree with on pretty much everything is only fujurpreux, and the next one is telrunya. Other than that? The people that I call friends and myself, we all have different points of view and I still consider them friends, despite AND because we don't look at the world with the same lenses.
This might sound very egocentric, but I do believe that I am very, very patient and understanding. I'm not good at getting angry, and I despise the violence of it, because anger clouds communication, and I love communication in any way, shape or form. But there are some things that I just can't do, some things that I can't stand.
Cruelty, hipocrisy and bootlickers.
I like people who are honest about themselves, people who don't try so hard to fit in that they come out as liars. I hate the hipocrisy of smiling and trying to pretend to be nice, or acting as if you suffer so much that everything you say is forgiven.
Cruelty is cruelty is cruelty. Let it be that you're cruel to a human baby, a plant, or an animal. Cruelty, to me, means knowing that you're stronger than someone and you choose to violently take advantage of that strength. It has nothing to do with some stupid notion like 'for the greater good'. I hate talk like that because when the eyes are set on the future, you miss things about the present, and the present is all we have. We CAN'T know for sure that being cruel to someone right now will be 'good' for the future, all we have are vague promises. Pretending they're not being cruel is awful. That something good might come from it? Perhaps. But the cruelty of your actions will not be erased just because 'it's better this way'.
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And now, I'm hungry and I have stuff to write about.
And I have so many ideas, and so many GOOD fics to read and ooooh, it had been such a long time since I actually shipped the main ship in a fandom. Which is not to say that it's the only thing that motivates me, but still. Is nice to be able to read stuff in a fandom without bemoaning that your favorite character (Merlin) doesn't get enough stuff.
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And now, in something else, friending in my journal.
As I mentioned before, people are free to friend me, which is not to say that I have to friend back. I'm not an interesting person. I'm a young woman who's getting out of her depression and getting back on her life, but I doubt that, for the people that just find my journal, that's very interesting. What is interesting? It might be by fangirling or my thoughts about some series. Other than that? Not really. I'm sure that most of you found me through fics, which is why I have a community for fics, icons and the like.
When I friend someone it's usually because we've been talking for a while and there's common interest, or a certain empathy. I'm not an easy person to talk to, mostly because I don't open too much to others. The things that are locked are my most personal things, not because I want to come out as perfect but because it's MY sadness and I have the right to choose who to show it to. It's sadness about my mother's loss, about my family, about friends long gone. Most of the time, I do my best not to talk about others behind cuts, mostly because it's a lie. The few times I've done so is because I realize I'm complaining about MY pet peeves and I see no point on causing drama about that.
I can understand having different political points of view. I think that, in my FList, the one person that I agree with on pretty much everything is only fujurpreux, and the next one is telrunya. Other than that? The people that I call friends and myself, we all have different points of view and I still consider them friends, despite AND because we don't look at the world with the same lenses.
This might sound very egocentric, but I do believe that I am very, very patient and understanding. I'm not good at getting angry, and I despise the violence of it, because anger clouds communication, and I love communication in any way, shape or form. But there are some things that I just can't do, some things that I can't stand.
Cruelty, hipocrisy and bootlickers.
I like people who are honest about themselves, people who don't try so hard to fit in that they come out as liars. I hate the hipocrisy of smiling and trying to pretend to be nice, or acting as if you suffer so much that everything you say is forgiven.
Cruelty is cruelty is cruelty. Let it be that you're cruel to a human baby, a plant, or an animal. Cruelty, to me, means knowing that you're stronger than someone and you choose to violently take advantage of that strength. It has nothing to do with some stupid notion like 'for the greater good'. I hate talk like that because when the eyes are set on the future, you miss things about the present, and the present is all we have. We CAN'T know for sure that being cruel to someone right now will be 'good' for the future, all we have are vague promises. Pretending they're not being cruel is awful. That something good might come from it? Perhaps. But the cruelty of your actions will not be erased just because 'it's better this way'.
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And now, I'm hungry and I have stuff to write about.