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One thing I hate and I will always hate is people judging me by others standards. This is not a 'I'm a special snowflake' rant. I know that people judge other people based on their own experience.
But that someone who had dared to call himself my friend suddenly starts sprouting shit about me not giving a shit about a friendship? That I do hate and yes, that does hurt, because I might be a shitty human being and all you'd like, but one thing I do is care. I care for other people so much that it was putting me on the verge of ignoring my well being to take care of others.
So you can't wait for a proof of friendship? Crying when you were sad and wishing I could be there when you needed me is not enough? WHAT THE FUCK where you expecting? And going around how a sad shy boy was reaching for me? HI. HOW THE FUCK DO YOU EXPECT SOMEONE KNOWS THAT PERSON NEEDS YOU? I'm not psychic. I can't know if someone is in pain if they don't tell me. I can't know someone else's need if I'm not told. Bad of me? Selfish? Yeah, well, that's who I am.
So, next time you start thinking someone isn't a friend, think if you've been much of a friend, too. Friendships run bothways. They go rotten both ways. Yes, I might have made lots of mistakes, I'm not denying that. I'm too quiet, I hate to ask personal questions because it's my firm belief that if someone says 'fine', it's that person's right to say 'fine' until they well damn please. I'm too aloof, I don't know how to carry conversations, perhaps foolishly thinking that silences aren't as bad.
Fine. My damn fault. Thank you for showing how little you know me.
But that someone who had dared to call himself my friend suddenly starts sprouting shit about me not giving a shit about a friendship? That I do hate and yes, that does hurt, because I might be a shitty human being and all you'd like, but one thing I do is care. I care for other people so much that it was putting me on the verge of ignoring my well being to take care of others.
So you can't wait for a proof of friendship? Crying when you were sad and wishing I could be there when you needed me is not enough? WHAT THE FUCK where you expecting? And going around how a sad shy boy was reaching for me? HI. HOW THE FUCK DO YOU EXPECT SOMEONE KNOWS THAT PERSON NEEDS YOU? I'm not psychic. I can't know if someone is in pain if they don't tell me. I can't know someone else's need if I'm not told. Bad of me? Selfish? Yeah, well, that's who I am.
So, next time you start thinking someone isn't a friend, think if you've been much of a friend, too. Friendships run bothways. They go rotten both ways. Yes, I might have made lots of mistakes, I'm not denying that. I'm too quiet, I hate to ask personal questions because it's my firm belief that if someone says 'fine', it's that person's right to say 'fine' until they well damn please. I'm too aloof, I don't know how to carry conversations, perhaps foolishly thinking that silences aren't as bad.
Fine. My damn fault. Thank you for showing how little you know me.