I think,
I fell on my ass. But, it didn't actually hurt as much as I predicted it would. I think I'm already over it. And, if this is true, well then I've come a long way in the last year. A lot more than I'd like to give myself credit for.
This last month has been like a whirlwind of emotions and I'm not exactly sure how to deal with it. Or how I did deal with it. I haven't written in this thing forever because I can't even form words or feelings. It's just one large mass confusion.
I've decided I want to write. But, not just write...write something. About me. I want to tell my story. I don't want it to be a book. I'm not important enough for that. But, my story, a part in a book maybe. I'm proud of my story and everyone that is involved in it. I'm proud of what I've over come. I'm proud of being the person I am today. Although I'm not that great, I sure as hell am a lot better than I was.
Candise trip came and went in a flash of an eye and I can't believe how much I miss her. It's weird walking into my room and her not being there. It's just pure insanity. I finally found one of the people that I can just spend non stop time with and not get sick of them. If you know me, those people are very rare.
I'm currently saving all my money for two trips. I'm getting my butt down to Florida as sooon as I can so that I can visit Candise, and then we are going to go to Chicago so I can visit Sophia. I love that girl more than life itself. And, when she marries Nick, I'm so going to be in the wedding. True story. Haha.
I'm listening to Nick's cover of How Will I Know, at nauseum. It just hits a spot right now and I can't seem to turn it off. His voice is amazing.
There's a boy I know, he's the one I'm dreaming of.
Anyway, the boy situation is still confusing as hell, but I'm taking a break from it. By force. I think. I don't know. I can't even make up my own mind. I need to work on that. So, I guess we shall see it goes in the coming months.
They still don't know what's wrong with me. Go figure. I'll just continue to suffer until they get their acts together, thanks.
I don't know what else I have to say. I could write a lot more and vent a lot more, but it's all a jumble in my head. So probably another post sometime soon. I don't feel complete yet.
This last month has been like a whirlwind of emotions and I'm not exactly sure how to deal with it. Or how I did deal with it. I haven't written in this thing forever because I can't even form words or feelings. It's just one large mass confusion.
I've decided I want to write. But, not just write...write something. About me. I want to tell my story. I don't want it to be a book. I'm not important enough for that. But, my story, a part in a book maybe. I'm proud of my story and everyone that is involved in it. I'm proud of what I've over come. I'm proud of being the person I am today. Although I'm not that great, I sure as hell am a lot better than I was.
Candise trip came and went in a flash of an eye and I can't believe how much I miss her. It's weird walking into my room and her not being there. It's just pure insanity. I finally found one of the people that I can just spend non stop time with and not get sick of them. If you know me, those people are very rare.
I'm currently saving all my money for two trips. I'm getting my butt down to Florida as sooon as I can so that I can visit Candise, and then we are going to go to Chicago so I can visit Sophia. I love that girl more than life itself. And, when she marries Nick, I'm so going to be in the wedding. True story. Haha.
I'm listening to Nick's cover of How Will I Know, at nauseum. It just hits a spot right now and I can't seem to turn it off. His voice is amazing.
There's a boy I know, he's the one I'm dreaming of.
Anyway, the boy situation is still confusing as hell, but I'm taking a break from it. By force. I think. I don't know. I can't even make up my own mind. I need to work on that. So, I guess we shall see it goes in the coming months.
They still don't know what's wrong with me. Go figure. I'll just continue to suffer until they get their acts together, thanks.
I don't know what else I have to say. I could write a lot more and vent a lot more, but it's all a jumble in my head. So probably another post sometime soon. I don't feel complete yet.