it's 2 in the morning....
i wanna write you a letter. just so you know how i feel. sick. everything about you makes me sick. good sick/bad sick. i don't even know where i cross the line anymore.
all i know is that my heart aches constantly. that i cry for no reason at all. no good reason at least. the mere mention of your name gives me a reason to smile, but day by day, i lose hope. i never wanted it to be like this. i never wanted for me to feel like this about you and god knows i didn't expect it. i never thought in a million years you would give me the chance to feel like this about you. i cant put the blame on you and im not trying. some silly crush has turn into these real life feelings and i dont like it. they arent made to go away so easily. my heart is really going to get hurt.
i hate not knowing the future or if i'm wasting my time. i want you to stop being what i think about before bed, when i wake up in the morning, or who i talk about all day long. i want you gone from heart, but not my head. i don't like doubting you. i hate that there are reasons to believe what i hear. part of me wants to go bck seven months and pretend this never happened. but who am i kidding, i can't do that.
mostly, i don't like that you helped me become the person i am today. overall, a happy person.
i'm confused, helpless and lonely.
yet right now, overall miserable.
why do i cry over you all of the time?
all i know is that my heart aches constantly. that i cry for no reason at all. no good reason at least. the mere mention of your name gives me a reason to smile, but day by day, i lose hope. i never wanted it to be like this. i never wanted for me to feel like this about you and god knows i didn't expect it. i never thought in a million years you would give me the chance to feel like this about you. i cant put the blame on you and im not trying. some silly crush has turn into these real life feelings and i dont like it. they arent made to go away so easily. my heart is really going to get hurt.
i hate not knowing the future or if i'm wasting my time. i want you to stop being what i think about before bed, when i wake up in the morning, or who i talk about all day long. i want you gone from heart, but not my head. i don't like doubting you. i hate that there are reasons to believe what i hear. part of me wants to go bck seven months and pretend this never happened. but who am i kidding, i can't do that.
mostly, i don't like that you helped me become the person i am today. overall, a happy person.
i'm confused, helpless and lonely.
yet right now, overall miserable.
why do i cry over you all of the time?