so, wake up and let go of these feelings ive had for you.
Honestly, this whole weekend has been so overwhelming. I woke up friday feeling more depressed than I have in a while and I disliked it. I felt like everyone was mad at me. But, regardless, I went upstate to spend the weekend with my best friend. Friday night was a lot of fun, we drank and danced around like idiots. I may or may not have knocked over a glass, fell asleep to basketball and kissed the dog. Saturday was shopping. Got sexy and went to applebees where Maloree texted Danny and now the new catch phrase is "FUCK HOCKEY." yeah yeah, we love it.
Came home on Sunday to much drama, things have changed a lot and I feel unsure of everything in life right now. But, I have two of the best people in the world supporting me through it and I think I'll be okay. I just need to get priorities straight. It'll work itself out. It has to.
I've been thinking a lot lately and I just don't understand people who hate on other people because they have good things. And, ignoring texts is just way mature. Why not just be upfront about it and let me know that you're selfish and jealous. It's not like I ignore your lame texts when you "need" me. Grow a fucking set, or get a backbone. What the hell.
I feel like I'm living this song lately. Sincerly yours, by hit the lights. Everything just seems to click. I don't like it because it's not happy. I hate being unhappy. I never want to feel unhappy again. I don't want to accept misery.
My laptop's broken and the only way I can get a new one is to enroll in school. Thanks, because we all know that's not gunna happen, so I'm stuck without. Nothing is safe on the main pc because fucking assholes have a problem with deleting shit. And, pretty soon there's going to be a fucking war in my house.
Also, I'm just putting this out there. He deserved to die. He was a pedophile. I don't care who did it, just about who I know didn't do it. I hate people who go about saying what a good person someone was once their dead. If the sucked at life, then fucking say that. Don't be such damn babies about the whole fucking situation.
Seems like everything has come undone. I had a few minutes of feeling totally hopeless. But, someone is always there to snap me out of it. I feel okay this time, I have a safety net. She promised she wouldn't let it get bad and I trust her more than I trust myself. I know no matter how bad things get, I'll be okay. I'll get through it.
I can't wait for...june 27th. i can't wait to be away from this place for 2 weeks with my best friend. i can't wait to see nick. i can't wait until candise is up here with me for the best week ever. i can't wait for warped. i can't wait for a good summer for once. i can't wait to make something of myself.
And, because it wouldn't be a journal entry without mentioning it. The like is still alive and kicking. I'm starting to become okay with who and what this whole thing means. It doesn't have to be as hard as I make it seem. People are people and if someone doesn't understand the situation then they can just step out of my business. Yes? I agree. Totally. I'll take care of me and my heart and not worry about everyone else.
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Came home on Sunday to much drama, things have changed a lot and I feel unsure of everything in life right now. But, I have two of the best people in the world supporting me through it and I think I'll be okay. I just need to get priorities straight. It'll work itself out. It has to.
I've been thinking a lot lately and I just don't understand people who hate on other people because they have good things. And, ignoring texts is just way mature. Why not just be upfront about it and let me know that you're selfish and jealous. It's not like I ignore your lame texts when you "need" me. Grow a fucking set, or get a backbone. What the hell.
I feel like I'm living this song lately. Sincerly yours, by hit the lights. Everything just seems to click. I don't like it because it's not happy. I hate being unhappy. I never want to feel unhappy again. I don't want to accept misery.
My laptop's broken and the only way I can get a new one is to enroll in school. Thanks, because we all know that's not gunna happen, so I'm stuck without. Nothing is safe on the main pc because fucking assholes have a problem with deleting shit. And, pretty soon there's going to be a fucking war in my house.
Also, I'm just putting this out there. He deserved to die. He was a pedophile. I don't care who did it, just about who I know didn't do it. I hate people who go about saying what a good person someone was once their dead. If the sucked at life, then fucking say that. Don't be such damn babies about the whole fucking situation.
Seems like everything has come undone. I had a few minutes of feeling totally hopeless. But, someone is always there to snap me out of it. I feel okay this time, I have a safety net. She promised she wouldn't let it get bad and I trust her more than I trust myself. I know no matter how bad things get, I'll be okay. I'll get through it.
I can't wait for...june 27th. i can't wait to be away from this place for 2 weeks with my best friend. i can't wait to see nick. i can't wait until candise is up here with me for the best week ever. i can't wait for warped. i can't wait for a good summer for once. i can't wait to make something of myself.
And, because it wouldn't be a journal entry without mentioning it. The like is still alive and kicking. I'm starting to become okay with who and what this whole thing means. It doesn't have to be as hard as I make it seem. People are people and if someone doesn't understand the situation then they can just step out of my business. Yes? I agree. Totally. I'll take care of me and my heart and not worry about everyone else.
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