i know i don't know you, but i want you so bad
first of all...i <3 maroon 5 :-)
...part of me feels deep right now but most of me feels lame so who
knows how this entry will turn out...
so it's been forever and i don't feel like doing lame catching up shit so if you were there than you obviously know what i've been doing and if you weren't...eh...to bad. like anyone really cares anyways
so today was the first day of dance and it was pretty sweet..but then i just went into weird memory mode on the way home and it's seriously where i am like 80% of the time now and i don't even get it...i mean im sure it's just senior year-ness just like everyone but im just in the weirdest place. like i just started thinking about how 2 years ago first day of dance keith was there..and then he told me to do smokey joe's and then the whole vicious cycle began...and then how weird is it that if keith hadn't signed up for dance..i prolly would have never done the show...and i dunno just weirdness...and then last year chels danced, and that was awesome, and all our car rides to and from.. and now it's my last year at jedec and i don't knwo if that is a good or bad thing or what that means or if i'll even ever really DANCE again....and im rambling miserably and that's all i seem to do lately,....granted not necessarily out loud but in my head but that makes it creepier... i think i am just a big creep... but my love meagan understands me so i guess that im not so alone...but than again seeing how she's gone maybe it does....ya so im going all out @ dance this year,....or so i say on the first day...but as of right now i really do want to change...i'm gonna stop eating like a disgusting whale and stop being lazy and etc etc etc...ya right you say...but no more diet starts tomorrow...that's done ;-)
blech, im such a downer lately...but its' better than a front of fake happiness....or that's the story im sticking with anyways
not to say that some stuff lately hasn't been really sweet...cuz some of it really has...and in general im really really happy with my schedule and my classes....and pretty much life in general and friends and crap...but there is sitll that negativity that i just can't shake, so who knows...this year is lookign like it's gonna go by sooo fast and things are only looking good so if i can just get past all the dumb shit it should be sweet.
so that's it my loves :-) read that if you want a sick ramble in the mind of me...and if not don't :-)
peace love and granola kids
so it's been forever and i don't feel like doing lame catching up shit so if you were there than you obviously know what i've been doing and if you weren't...eh...to bad. like anyone really cares anyways
so today was the first day of dance and it was pretty sweet..but then i just went into weird memory mode on the way home and it's seriously where i am like 80% of the time now and i don't even get it...i mean im sure it's just senior year-ness just like everyone but im just in the weirdest place. like i just started thinking about how 2 years ago first day of dance keith was there..and then he told me to do smokey joe's and then the whole vicious cycle began...and then how weird is it that if keith hadn't signed up for dance..i prolly would have never done the show...and i dunno just weirdness...and then last year chels danced, and that was awesome, and all our car rides to and from.. and now it's my last year at jedec and i don't knwo if that is a good or bad thing or what that means or if i'll even ever really DANCE again....and im rambling miserably and that's all i seem to do lately,....granted not necessarily out loud but in my head but that makes it creepier... i think i am just a big creep... but my love meagan understands me so i guess that im not so alone...but than again seeing how she's gone maybe it does....ya so im going all out @ dance this year,....or so i say on the first day...but as of right now i really do want to change...i'm gonna stop eating like a disgusting whale and stop being lazy and etc etc etc...ya right you say...but no more diet starts tomorrow...that's done ;-)
blech, im such a downer lately...but its' better than a front of fake happiness....or that's the story im sticking with anyways
not to say that some stuff lately hasn't been really sweet...cuz some of it really has...and in general im really really happy with my schedule and my classes....and pretty much life in general and friends and crap...but there is sitll that negativity that i just can't shake, so who knows...this year is lookign like it's gonna go by sooo fast and things are only looking good so if i can just get past all the dumb shit it should be sweet.
so that's it my loves :-) read that if you want a sick ramble in the mind of me...and if not don't :-)
peace love and granola kids