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I spent the day waiting for my lazy, procrastinating, insecure and immature boyfriend to come to me.
The ten minutes I came to him for, ended much faster than I could have anticipated and now I've also spent the night waiting for him to come back and donate some of HIS time...
Nada.
I'm not doing this anymore.
I am not making his inability to become part of my life on his time, something that should affect me- socially or emotionally.
It's time to act like a 20 year old woman would.
And think, it's time to take control and not act or speak silently.
I'm going to get fucking angry. I'm going to not go down silently, I'm going to make him eat his own words and actions.
I'm not playing the cute card anymore. It's time to grow up.
I need to educate myself much more than I'm doing.
I need to get overseas again. And again.
I need to start dressing like a man-killer, because there is only so much time I can.
No more girl who apologises for everything.
Because it's not my fault.
The ten minutes I came to him for, ended much faster than I could have anticipated and now I've also spent the night waiting for him to come back and donate some of HIS time...
Nada.
I'm not doing this anymore.
I am not making his inability to become part of my life on his time, something that should affect me- socially or emotionally.
It's time to act like a 20 year old woman would.
And think, it's time to take control and not act or speak silently.
I'm going to get fucking angry. I'm going to not go down silently, I'm going to make him eat his own words and actions.
I'm not playing the cute card anymore. It's time to grow up.
I need to educate myself much more than I'm doing.
I need to get overseas again. And again.
I need to start dressing like a man-killer, because there is only so much time I can.
No more girl who apologises for everything.
Because it's not my fault.