Aug 09, 2008 02:47
my mom said something that made me really sad and really happy at the same time.
here's the backstory: my dad found out that after all the health problems he has, he can now add anemia to that list. so he hasn't been feeling like himself lately. I came home yesterday just to hang out with my parents since I haven't been home since April and felt like a shithead for it.
he told her that he's been feeling a lot better since I came home. at first, I thought my mom was just laying on the guilt because I rarely come home, but she assured me it wasn't. this made me sad because I didn't realize how bad my dad had been feeling and that I should have come home more often. but it made me happy and loved because I realized how much I mean to my dad. I also think that I'm one of the only people who still listens to his stories, discusses comedians, politics, and sports in one conversation, and will sit on the couch sharing a box of cheez-its and watch cartoons or weird movies that only we like.
I realized that our relationship has changed as I've grown up, but it's also still the same. to him, I'll always be his little girl, eating cereal in my pajamas on a Saturday morning and watching Bugs Bunny with him. and now, it's Cinderella Man on HBO rather than Bugs Bunny. but frankly, I'd rather be sitting on the couch with my dad, eating a bowl of cereal, acting out our favorite scenes from Cinderella Man than doing anything else in the world.