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i cant sleep.
this past weekend has been pretty fun. friday night we went to the whit for a little welcome back party. it was nice seeing everyone together again. last night brit, meagan and i went to club blu and dispite everyone telling us that it was really trashy, we had tons of fun! we danced all night, got really sweaty, met up with some people from school, and it wasn't even close to as trashy as people made it out to be. i had a lot of fun. today i woke up pretty early, meagan straightened my hair, and we went shopping for taco stuff, then we had a nice dinner, i did some homework, watched extreme makeover home edition, and here i am.
the only part about this weekend was that i felt pretty lonely. friday night brits boyfriend came up, and so did rebeccas, and meagans boy toy came up too. so tonight, little ol me was stuck alone watching tv, and hearing giggling and laughing all around me. which got me thinking about how i am pretty much living in a house full of super models.
and then there's me.
i feel so ugly living in this house. i dont know how i am going to survive the rest of this semester. i dont want any comments like, oh alison shut up you are pretty or any of that. thats not why i'm writing. i feel like maybe if i get all this shit out, i can finally fall asleep.
i spent the last half hour crying about how fat i feel, and how all my roomates have men crawling at their feet...seriously, even girls are after them. like today meagan and i were walking out of the house to go grocery shopping and this girl popped her head out of her house and was like "excuze me, (talking to meagan) i just wanted to tell you how beautiful and gorgeous i think you are!"...and EVERY time i have a guy over here, the only thing they can say is, "hey alison, get your roomate out here, or ooooh i saw your roomate at the gym, shes soo hot, or hey alison, how can i get your roomates number.
i mean, i know that i'm not that unfortunate looking, but lately i really feel like i am. all my roomates can share clothes, and shoes, but not me. and they all have had multiple boyfriends and they always talk about all their experiences, hell, rebecca is engaged!! its just so depressing. and also kind of embarassing. and then, theres the times when i really think that i like a guy, or i feel like they are into me...but no, then they start talking to me about some girl they have a crush on, and they ask me for advise...or they're just stupid,or complete ass holes and all they care about is getting drunk and getting laid.
and my gerbal keeps biting me.
and i feel gross.
whatever.
this past weekend has been pretty fun. friday night we went to the whit for a little welcome back party. it was nice seeing everyone together again. last night brit, meagan and i went to club blu and dispite everyone telling us that it was really trashy, we had tons of fun! we danced all night, got really sweaty, met up with some people from school, and it wasn't even close to as trashy as people made it out to be. i had a lot of fun. today i woke up pretty early, meagan straightened my hair, and we went shopping for taco stuff, then we had a nice dinner, i did some homework, watched extreme makeover home edition, and here i am.
the only part about this weekend was that i felt pretty lonely. friday night brits boyfriend came up, and so did rebeccas, and meagans boy toy came up too. so tonight, little ol me was stuck alone watching tv, and hearing giggling and laughing all around me. which got me thinking about how i am pretty much living in a house full of super models.
and then there's me.
i feel so ugly living in this house. i dont know how i am going to survive the rest of this semester. i dont want any comments like, oh alison shut up you are pretty or any of that. thats not why i'm writing. i feel like maybe if i get all this shit out, i can finally fall asleep.
i spent the last half hour crying about how fat i feel, and how all my roomates have men crawling at their feet...seriously, even girls are after them. like today meagan and i were walking out of the house to go grocery shopping and this girl popped her head out of her house and was like "excuze me, (talking to meagan) i just wanted to tell you how beautiful and gorgeous i think you are!"...and EVERY time i have a guy over here, the only thing they can say is, "hey alison, get your roomate out here, or ooooh i saw your roomate at the gym, shes soo hot, or hey alison, how can i get your roomates number.
i mean, i know that i'm not that unfortunate looking, but lately i really feel like i am. all my roomates can share clothes, and shoes, but not me. and they all have had multiple boyfriends and they always talk about all their experiences, hell, rebecca is engaged!! its just so depressing. and also kind of embarassing. and then, theres the times when i really think that i like a guy, or i feel like they are into me...but no, then they start talking to me about some girl they have a crush on, and they ask me for advise...or they're just stupid,or complete ass holes and all they care about is getting drunk and getting laid.
and my gerbal keeps biting me.
and i feel gross.
whatever.