Step 2 to Growing Up
I always hated change. Even the good kind of change where you got to move on to the next grade and pick out all new classes and smell the new smell of textbooks. Why? Because it mean there were people and things I was leaving behind, running the risk of not seeing them again.
But not everyone's like that, I've realized, and even if they are, most seem to have an easier time dealing with it. So perhaps it's time to cash in my warrenty and move up to the bigger model. It sounds callous to my ears, that I want to become less sentimental, less attached to the past. But anchoring myself in the present, oriented towards the future. I have to make my plans for myself only, because ultimately, that's what future is, it's yours, and there's very little other people in your life can do to influence it. You can't depend on other people to hold your hand and say "everything's going to be alright" because sometimes, it won't be. So it's just you. As much as we care about eachother, my girls and I all have different life paths. David's already on his way. We could end up scattered all over the globe, and have to trust that our friendship will transcend distance and become something more because of it.
So I'm just me, that's all I can be (in the words of Mell), but it feels lonely. But then again, maybe strength carries with it a timbre of solitude.
"Doubt is the beginning, not the end, of wisdom" ~George Iles
But not everyone's like that, I've realized, and even if they are, most seem to have an easier time dealing with it. So perhaps it's time to cash in my warrenty and move up to the bigger model. It sounds callous to my ears, that I want to become less sentimental, less attached to the past. But anchoring myself in the present, oriented towards the future. I have to make my plans for myself only, because ultimately, that's what future is, it's yours, and there's very little other people in your life can do to influence it. You can't depend on other people to hold your hand and say "everything's going to be alright" because sometimes, it won't be. So it's just you. As much as we care about eachother, my girls and I all have different life paths. David's already on his way. We could end up scattered all over the globe, and have to trust that our friendship will transcend distance and become something more because of it.
So I'm just me, that's all I can be (in the words of Mell), but it feels lonely. But then again, maybe strength carries with it a timbre of solitude.
"Doubt is the beginning, not the end, of wisdom" ~George Iles