So it has been a while...
Since my last visit here.
Lots of things have changed. Well, that's a silly statement; things are always changing, every minute of every hour of every day.
My only problem seems to be dealing with the BIG and unexpected changes that are entirely unwanted. I've had a lot of those lately. After pulling a sort of 'now you see me, now you don't' affair with the start of this semester, well... those people down there won't be seeing me again. And, in the end, even though I might be angry at myself for not pushing through and 'being the strong one' ... well I can honestly say that leaving that place and that sadly pathetic educational flop will turn out to be the best thing that I could have done for myself.
So now, I'm hauling myself back to my feet, as it were, and preparing to hit the ground at a sprint once I find the place that will be best for helping me in my journey. After a false start, and some backtracking, I'm setting a new starting line, and this one will not let me down.
I have been on a long and adventuresome journey these past few months. And honestly, I can say with every fibre of my being that those months were the best that I have ever experienced. The summer has brought me many wonderful and beautiful things that I will always treasure. The people and places that have been in my life in the recent past have given me more happiness than I could have ever dreamed of, and as a consequence, I am more fulfilled and able to embrace my humanity- inside and out.
Lots of things have changed. Well, that's a silly statement; things are always changing, every minute of every hour of every day.
My only problem seems to be dealing with the BIG and unexpected changes that are entirely unwanted. I've had a lot of those lately. After pulling a sort of 'now you see me, now you don't' affair with the start of this semester, well... those people down there won't be seeing me again. And, in the end, even though I might be angry at myself for not pushing through and 'being the strong one' ... well I can honestly say that leaving that place and that sadly pathetic educational flop will turn out to be the best thing that I could have done for myself.
So now, I'm hauling myself back to my feet, as it were, and preparing to hit the ground at a sprint once I find the place that will be best for helping me in my journey. After a false start, and some backtracking, I'm setting a new starting line, and this one will not let me down.
I have been on a long and adventuresome journey these past few months. And honestly, I can say with every fibre of my being that those months were the best that I have ever experienced. The summer has brought me many wonderful and beautiful things that I will always treasure. The people and places that have been in my life in the recent past have given me more happiness than I could have ever dreamed of, and as a consequence, I am more fulfilled and able to embrace my humanity- inside and out.