The end of the line
A lot has changed in just the two months since this year began, so much that I'm not sure where to begin, or what I want to share. More family drama, a friendship that ended rather spectacularly (*cough*myex*cough*). I think about this blog too infrequently, and too few people still use this site to make it worth the upkeep.
I think it's time.
Time to retire this old horse and move on. This ol' livejournal will continue to live on here, a memorial to my misspent youth, but I will not be updating it anymore. Here is where I leave you:
I finally got A Job! I was promoted to admin assistant at the Science Center, and for the first time in close to four years I finally have a job that I can feel good about. A job where I actually feel like I'm using my degree. A job I can live on! I don't feel like I'm drowning in debt anymore! It is. Goddamn. Amazing.
At around the same time I got this job, I met someone too. It's only been a couple months but he's...well, he's special. Being with him just feels right all the way down to my bones. Funny, sweet, kind, a genuinely good person I have tons of fun with, we have the same values and we want the same things out of life. I feel an optimism that I wish would behave itself and be cautious but insists on being giddy instead.
So all in all, things are looking up! This is the right note I want to end this diary on. I mean, know the pattern of my life, I know I can't always stay this happy: with my anxiety, the next big depression is always waiting on the horizon. Something eventually will go wrong in my life and break my heart, but for the first time in a few years I feel like I can face it when it comes.
I think it's time.
Time to retire this old horse and move on. This ol' livejournal will continue to live on here, a memorial to my misspent youth, but I will not be updating it anymore. Here is where I leave you:
I finally got A Job! I was promoted to admin assistant at the Science Center, and for the first time in close to four years I finally have a job that I can feel good about. A job where I actually feel like I'm using my degree. A job I can live on! I don't feel like I'm drowning in debt anymore! It is. Goddamn. Amazing.
At around the same time I got this job, I met someone too. It's only been a couple months but he's...well, he's special. Being with him just feels right all the way down to my bones. Funny, sweet, kind, a genuinely good person I have tons of fun with, we have the same values and we want the same things out of life. I feel an optimism that I wish would behave itself and be cautious but insists on being giddy instead.
So all in all, things are looking up! This is the right note I want to end this diary on. I mean, know the pattern of my life, I know I can't always stay this happy: with my anxiety, the next big depression is always waiting on the horizon. Something eventually will go wrong in my life and break my heart, but for the first time in a few years I feel like I can face it when it comes.