The state of things now...
I've been kicking around the idea of updating for the new year, reflecting on where things stand with me. Well, I'm still at the Science Center, and still at the Burke. I still don't get days off, not really. I still can't seem to get a real job, or to turn my current jobs into something more. Things with my family are not good, for a number of reasons that I don't care to rehash here. Chris and I broke up a few months ago, too, after three years together. Aaaaand I turned 30, which makes all of this somehow feel worse. I was supposed to have some semblance of a real like by now, right?
All in all: crap year. Good things happened, of course, I don't want to sound like I've been completely joyless. Still, the trifecta of work, family, and breakup makes those moments feel very insignificant right now.
But there are good things to look forward to in the new year. This week I'm going to start an evening illustration class with a friend. Hopefully that will help scratch that creative itch I've had since, ooooh, probably grad school! I'm also trying to arrange my work schedules so that I'll be able to join a choir again, since singing is another itch that's been bugging. Also, I finally broke down and admitted that I won't be leaving Seattle any time soon, so leaving my mattress on the floor and using fifteen-year-old bedroom furniture I planned on tossing when I moved just isn't an option anymore. So, thanks to Ikea I now have a bed frame and bookshelves for days! It feels stupid to be so excited over not sleeping on the floor like a college student anymore, but my room looks age appropriate for once and it's so exciting!
The biggest silver lining of the year is probably that Chris and I have managed to stay friends. Really, this feels like such a huge achievement. Remember that I'd never dated till we met: the fact that we last as long as we did, then stuck the dismount as buddies, despite how sad the breakup was, despite the fact that he has a new girlfriend, is pretty major. Hopefully, when I feel ready to try dating again, I'll be able to remember this and it'll give me confidence.
All in all: crap year. Good things happened, of course, I don't want to sound like I've been completely joyless. Still, the trifecta of work, family, and breakup makes those moments feel very insignificant right now.
But there are good things to look forward to in the new year. This week I'm going to start an evening illustration class with a friend. Hopefully that will help scratch that creative itch I've had since, ooooh, probably grad school! I'm also trying to arrange my work schedules so that I'll be able to join a choir again, since singing is another itch that's been bugging. Also, I finally broke down and admitted that I won't be leaving Seattle any time soon, so leaving my mattress on the floor and using fifteen-year-old bedroom furniture I planned on tossing when I moved just isn't an option anymore. So, thanks to Ikea I now have a bed frame and bookshelves for days! It feels stupid to be so excited over not sleeping on the floor like a college student anymore, but my room looks age appropriate for once and it's so exciting!
The biggest silver lining of the year is probably that Chris and I have managed to stay friends. Really, this feels like such a huge achievement. Remember that I'd never dated till we met: the fact that we last as long as we did, then stuck the dismount as buddies, despite how sad the breakup was, despite the fact that he has a new girlfriend, is pretty major. Hopefully, when I feel ready to try dating again, I'll be able to remember this and it'll give me confidence.