as much as I love having the house to myself.......
.......I am really lonely. I don't think I could even live totally alone. I told Josh this last night. I would have to have somebody or something like a dog to keep me company. I love having the freedom, to be nicely tipsy on wine, before 6pm on what is MY Saturday! I got all my chores done. Taking out all of the trash cans. Yard waste, recycle, regular. Taken in the mail. Watered the plants outside. Now I sit, listening to my Dance like mix, doing a little wine drinking. I was lazy and got a Black Forest Ham Subway footlong. Tasted this time and I like it a lot better that way! Oh I got gas in my car. One less thing I have to do tomorrow, before picking up Josh!
Speaking of THAT! We chatted last night about this. Josh again says, "You really don't have to pick me up if you don't want too." And again I tell Josh I don't mind. I am not sure what his issue is. I know Josh know how NOT crazy I am about driving into Minneapolis. And how stressed out I get doing so. I live in the 'burbs where I know where everything it. No highway driving. Josh tells me the 'burbs are boring and for married people with kids. :-P I see it this way. Picking Josh up, gives me a reason to learn how to drive into The City. I feel like Josh thinks, this is inconveniencing me in some way.
The parade starting point is just blocks from where he live. I could be taking the train alone, that would take me near to where I have to be. but I am not real crazy about riding the train alone. The train is sort of like a subway train but not underground and would think not nearly as scary!! I was going to get a ride, with Josh's step mom, who doesn't live that far from me. She gets really stressed out over these events and would rather drive alone. Me picking Josh up, allows me to see him, have a tour guide to where the parade site is and I don't have to ride the train alone.
Today we text a little. Josh and I. I texted him to say, that my sister said that, meeting at Noon at the parade site is soon enough. Yet AGAIN! Josh says that, I really don't need to pick him up. I guess seeing as he lives so close to where we have to be. I suppose I should have explain the reason that, I want to pick him up, is that I need him as my tour guide of sorts.
Why do guys have to be so fucking complicated?
Then Josh and I were trying to figure out what time we can get together to see the new Leo movie "Inception". We were trying to find a time that works for us. He works during the week. I work weekends. We pick a theater, at the Mall of America, that is playing it at 11pm on Saturday. It's a 2 and a half hour movie. Josh said that, he would be cool with it, if I was willing to drive him home after. Than was worried, about it getting to late and me missing work the next day. I don't work Sunday till 1pm. Am thinking the latest I would get home would be like 2am?
I think it's really sweet, that he is thinking of me. Being concerned and all. But again I want to be like, "Don't worry so much." Does he not think that, he is worthy enough of me making so much time for him? Have I not made it clear enough why? Really. Did I not say already how much I like him? I am beginning to think that, Josh has some serious self esteem issues. That he can't believe that, a girl as nice has myself, would want to make time for him. A guy that perhaps isn't it the best shape. Smokes sometimes. Sees the kind of guys I like normally. Taller, thinner, perhaps better looking. I need to find a way, to tell him somehow, that he IS in fact worthy of the time I make to be with him. That it's more that just a guys looks, that matters to me.
I am being totally serious about this. As much as I love, tall thin built guys, personality is HUGE! The way a guy treats a girl. Josh is a gentleman. If he wasn't, I am sure that, he would have tried something with me on the 4th of July, in the back of is step moms truck! *sigh* I still think back to that moment. It was.........heavenly. Why is it, so hard for Josh to think that, a girl like me would be into him?
OK I am rambling now. 2 glasses of wine kicking my ass.
My "boob shirt" and new push up bra are clean. 11:30am pick up time set. Direction to Josh's place written out and Google mapped. What I will say when I see him...........not set other that calling him JD which is sort of his nickname, getting one of his most amazing hugs, and getting him to call be Allie! ;-) Will have my phone with me, so will have to post if I can. Now I need to wish for great weather, no storms and that I don't make a foul out of myself.
Speaking of THAT! We chatted last night about this. Josh again says, "You really don't have to pick me up if you don't want too." And again I tell Josh I don't mind. I am not sure what his issue is. I know Josh know how NOT crazy I am about driving into Minneapolis. And how stressed out I get doing so. I live in the 'burbs where I know where everything it. No highway driving. Josh tells me the 'burbs are boring and for married people with kids. :-P I see it this way. Picking Josh up, gives me a reason to learn how to drive into The City. I feel like Josh thinks, this is inconveniencing me in some way.
The parade starting point is just blocks from where he live. I could be taking the train alone, that would take me near to where I have to be. but I am not real crazy about riding the train alone. The train is sort of like a subway train but not underground and would think not nearly as scary!! I was going to get a ride, with Josh's step mom, who doesn't live that far from me. She gets really stressed out over these events and would rather drive alone. Me picking Josh up, allows me to see him, have a tour guide to where the parade site is and I don't have to ride the train alone.
Today we text a little. Josh and I. I texted him to say, that my sister said that, meeting at Noon at the parade site is soon enough. Yet AGAIN! Josh says that, I really don't need to pick him up. I guess seeing as he lives so close to where we have to be. I suppose I should have explain the reason that, I want to pick him up, is that I need him as my tour guide of sorts.
Why do guys have to be so fucking complicated?
Then Josh and I were trying to figure out what time we can get together to see the new Leo movie "Inception". We were trying to find a time that works for us. He works during the week. I work weekends. We pick a theater, at the Mall of America, that is playing it at 11pm on Saturday. It's a 2 and a half hour movie. Josh said that, he would be cool with it, if I was willing to drive him home after. Than was worried, about it getting to late and me missing work the next day. I don't work Sunday till 1pm. Am thinking the latest I would get home would be like 2am?
I think it's really sweet, that he is thinking of me. Being concerned and all. But again I want to be like, "Don't worry so much." Does he not think that, he is worthy enough of me making so much time for him? Have I not made it clear enough why? Really. Did I not say already how much I like him? I am beginning to think that, Josh has some serious self esteem issues. That he can't believe that, a girl as nice has myself, would want to make time for him. A guy that perhaps isn't it the best shape. Smokes sometimes. Sees the kind of guys I like normally. Taller, thinner, perhaps better looking. I need to find a way, to tell him somehow, that he IS in fact worthy of the time I make to be with him. That it's more that just a guys looks, that matters to me.
I am being totally serious about this. As much as I love, tall thin built guys, personality is HUGE! The way a guy treats a girl. Josh is a gentleman. If he wasn't, I am sure that, he would have tried something with me on the 4th of July, in the back of is step moms truck! *sigh* I still think back to that moment. It was.........heavenly. Why is it, so hard for Josh to think that, a girl like me would be into him?
OK I am rambling now. 2 glasses of wine kicking my ass.
My "boob shirt" and new push up bra are clean. 11:30am pick up time set. Direction to Josh's place written out and Google mapped. What I will say when I see him...........not set other that calling him JD which is sort of his nickname, getting one of his most amazing hugs, and getting him to call be Allie! ;-) Will have my phone with me, so will have to post if I can. Now I need to wish for great weather, no storms and that I don't make a foul out of myself.