Went Home Early
Yep. I guess I looked shitty enough that my boss let me go home early. I got back from last break and about 5 minutes after that I asked if I could go home. We had 18 cashiers till Close. They can spare one rather sick one. I didn't feel good enough to stay, but not that bad. I am off tomorrow so I plan on kicking this colds ass!!
Then I hear from someone that Jake WAS in to get his check today and I missed him!!! *cries* I was getting slammed way up on Lane 28. That and being in a cold med induced haze, I was pretty much out of it all day. This is what I know. Jake was in to get his check with the g/f who I have yet to actaully see. Got Starbucks and then I guess left. I have his e-mail address so I hope to ask him he got the card. I just hope, at this point that we can casually keep in touch just as friends. One friend that is concerned for him is all. So a mix of what I thought was going to happen. Yes Jake came in again before leaving while I was working. But I missed him. I don't envy him at all for all the packing he has to do. He has 3 months of more training in Firt Worth and then goes to Iraq. This I get from someone in Food Ave. So who knows if it's true. *rolls eyes* So that is it I guess. The end of yet another love of mine. :-( I'm going to e-mail him tonight before I get to tired. I don't even know if Jake will even reply. All I can do is hope at this point.
I am feeling, emotionally like I was a little over a year ago when I was going through hell with my old job. I looked back to posts I made during that time. I didn't talk about any of it. It's weird. I seems to express myself here better now than back then. Back in March of '06. All the times they were writting me up for silly stuff just to get me to quit. This so they could save on payroll because I was maxed out. They then could hire someone for half of what I was making. It was one of those times that I really think that I went through some sort of depression. I was made feel so small. Totally not appreciated. But not it's because of a guy but I feel the same way. I am sure that it will be something that will pass in time. Nothing that needs pro help at all. Right now I smile but I don't feel it. This is rare for me. I am just not my normal happy go lucky bubbley self.
'Am I suppose to be happy. All I ever wanted comes with a price." from the song 'Cat and Mouse' by Red Jumpsuit Apparatus. It's make me cry. I hate feeling this way damn it!!
Then I hear from someone that Jake WAS in to get his check today and I missed him!!! *cries* I was getting slammed way up on Lane 28. That and being in a cold med induced haze, I was pretty much out of it all day. This is what I know. Jake was in to get his check with the g/f who I have yet to actaully see. Got Starbucks and then I guess left. I have his e-mail address so I hope to ask him he got the card. I just hope, at this point that we can casually keep in touch just as friends. One friend that is concerned for him is all. So a mix of what I thought was going to happen. Yes Jake came in again before leaving while I was working. But I missed him. I don't envy him at all for all the packing he has to do. He has 3 months of more training in Firt Worth and then goes to Iraq. This I get from someone in Food Ave. So who knows if it's true. *rolls eyes* So that is it I guess. The end of yet another love of mine. :-( I'm going to e-mail him tonight before I get to tired. I don't even know if Jake will even reply. All I can do is hope at this point.
I am feeling, emotionally like I was a little over a year ago when I was going through hell with my old job. I looked back to posts I made during that time. I didn't talk about any of it. It's weird. I seems to express myself here better now than back then. Back in March of '06. All the times they were writting me up for silly stuff just to get me to quit. This so they could save on payroll because I was maxed out. They then could hire someone for half of what I was making. It was one of those times that I really think that I went through some sort of depression. I was made feel so small. Totally not appreciated. But not it's because of a guy but I feel the same way. I am sure that it will be something that will pass in time. Nothing that needs pro help at all. Right now I smile but I don't feel it. This is rare for me. I am just not my normal happy go lucky bubbley self.
'Am I suppose to be happy. All I ever wanted comes with a price." from the song 'Cat and Mouse' by Red Jumpsuit Apparatus. It's make me cry. I hate feeling this way damn it!!