I still haven't found what I'm looking for.
To make a mark for today...I'd like to start off with a song that really means something to me right now.
Tomorrow (Avril Lavigne)
And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok,
Ya I try to believe you,
But I don't.
When you say that it's gonna be,
It always turns out to be a different way,
I try to believe you,
Not today, today, today, today, today...
I don't know how to feel,
tomorrow, tomorrow,
I don't know what to say,
tomorrow, tomorrow
Is a different day
It's always been up to you,
It's turning around,
It's up to me,
I'm gonna do what I have to do,
just don't.
Gimme a lil time,
Leave me alone a little while,
Maybe it's not too late,
not today, today, today, today, today...
I don't know how I feel
tomorrow, tomorrow,
I don't know what to say
tomorrow, tomorrow,
Is a different day.
And I know I'm not ready,
Maybe tomorrow.
And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok,
Ya I try to believe you,
Not today, today, today, today, today...
Tomorrow it may change...
--
So I'm a big fan. I also enjoy ourTunes. And I also enjoy organizing my music. I do not like making straight 75s on my gay quizzes for Marine Biology. I do enjoy watching the Oscars and wishing that I could be one of those old "antique" movie stars--the ones who looked beautiful despite the black-and-white films. I do enjoy food and friends...the latter a little too much. I don't like dirty bathrooms. I do like phone calls and making everything okay. I do like guy friends who are the best ever--the ones who are always there...who never change. I love being able to trust someone. I love Ariel...she makes me happy. I love when I figure out a Calculus problem. I love when I share the elevator with someone and make a new friend. I love laughing and smiling and dressing up and dressing down and even going to class. I love Human Geography for reasons that cannot be disclosed at the moment. I love Thursdays, Fridays, and Saturdays because of other reasons that I cannot disclose. I love that Spring Break is just around the corner...and I love reuniting with friends from high school. I love everything about UGA. I love my hallmates...especially Lindsey Large, who is soo supportive and just about the best ever. I love having girl friends who are ten times as wise as I am so they can advise me on my stupid mistakes. I love music that makes you realize that it's not soo bad. I love watching an old couple grocery shopping. I love puppies and dogs in general. I love sleeping in the sunshine. I don't like to see someone suffering. I love to make someone's day. It makes me sad to see people with dissabilities eating alone...but I love when I see someone helping them. It makes me hope that I can one day be that unselfish with my life. I love when I see an elderly man help his wife into a restaurant (or vice versa). I think that love is a beautiful thing, even if I have yet to experience it. For the most part, I think that people are good and have amazing hearts and great personalities. Sometimes, they just let their pasts affect them for the worst. In turn, I believe that they miss it. I like a little bit of U2 and also enjoy some good rap once in awhile. I love wearing my hair curly...but will work EXTRA hard to make it straight. I hate waking up dreading something that I have to do...but I sure do like waking up smiling realizing that everything is worth it. I love stories that make you realize that nothing is as bad as we make it out to be. I like when something really hits home and makes me think. I do not like people who take life for granted or kindness for granted. I do not like people who are blunt or nit-picky. I do like when someone gets what they deserve...yes, karma is a bitch. I like when you can see an obvious pattern that makes you laugh. I do enjoy a good deal and will shop long and hard to find one. I love buying people gifts and seeing them happy. I enjoy talking...I won't lie. I do like professing my problems. I don't mind hearing someone else's point of view. I do like to give advice--I wish I was better at it. I love feeling comfortable with everything I have. I enjoy having a good day. I like those times when your jeans fit right and your shirt looks good. I like surprises, Facebook messages, and text messages that make you smile. I love mellow music that makes me want to be in a field watching the clouds go by and just talking the day away. I love a good run that relieves so much stress. I love a song that gets you super pumped. I love seeing old friends and making new ones. I love introducing my new friends to my high school friends and vice versa. I love my family so much...even though I can be pretty crappy to them...they're pretty wonderful. I love kisses from my Buffy. I love tears of happiness. I love when you cry and you feel 100 times better than before you cried. I love long drives in Allie where I can just think and listen to some music. I love hot showers, warm towels, and lots of heat in my room. I love sleeping in. I love blankets, flannel, and wool--anything to keep me warm. I love fires. I love road trips. I enjoy an occasional Taco Bell visit. I like August 10th a whole lot. I love being 18...and I know that this will sound weird, but I love being a girl. I like not having to make the first move. I like the ball being somewhere else. I like just sitting here and taking it in. I do believe that there is such a thing as "moving on." And I do believe that it is possible for someone to love again. Don't take my word for it...I've never been in love. I can be romantic, but I can be completely pessimistic at the same time. I guess I got that from someone...who made me cynnical/pessimistic about a lot of stuff. I can be optimistic too...and optimism makes me happy. I like learning secrets. I love inside jokes. But I don't like feeling left out. I do not like when someone thinks they know me better than they really do. I like when I feel small and cute and like a little girl. I like having people who look up to me. I like being a leader and I like making good grades. I don't mind being a dork sometimes. I like school. I like people who are at the same point in their lives as me. I like being me...as hard as it is to do sometimes.
I don't mind being wrong. I really don't. And this time I was. But that's okay. They were right.
Embrace it. Enjoy it. Life is too important to worry away each day.
Blue-eyed boy meets a brown-eyed girl. Oh, oh, oh, the sweetest thing.
Tomorrow (Avril Lavigne)
And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok,
Ya I try to believe you,
But I don't.
When you say that it's gonna be,
It always turns out to be a different way,
I try to believe you,
Not today, today, today, today, today...
I don't know how to feel,
tomorrow, tomorrow,
I don't know what to say,
tomorrow, tomorrow
Is a different day
It's always been up to you,
It's turning around,
It's up to me,
I'm gonna do what I have to do,
just don't.
Gimme a lil time,
Leave me alone a little while,
Maybe it's not too late,
not today, today, today, today, today...
I don't know how I feel
tomorrow, tomorrow,
I don't know what to say
tomorrow, tomorrow,
Is a different day.
And I know I'm not ready,
Maybe tomorrow.
And I wanna believe you,
When you tell me that it'll be ok,
Ya I try to believe you,
Not today, today, today, today, today...
Tomorrow it may change...
--
So I'm a big fan. I also enjoy ourTunes. And I also enjoy organizing my music. I do not like making straight 75s on my gay quizzes for Marine Biology. I do enjoy watching the Oscars and wishing that I could be one of those old "antique" movie stars--the ones who looked beautiful despite the black-and-white films. I do enjoy food and friends...the latter a little too much. I don't like dirty bathrooms. I do like phone calls and making everything okay. I do like guy friends who are the best ever--the ones who are always there...who never change. I love being able to trust someone. I love Ariel...she makes me happy. I love when I figure out a Calculus problem. I love when I share the elevator with someone and make a new friend. I love laughing and smiling and dressing up and dressing down and even going to class. I love Human Geography for reasons that cannot be disclosed at the moment. I love Thursdays, Fridays, and Saturdays because of other reasons that I cannot disclose. I love that Spring Break is just around the corner...and I love reuniting with friends from high school. I love everything about UGA. I love my hallmates...especially Lindsey Large, who is soo supportive and just about the best ever. I love having girl friends who are ten times as wise as I am so they can advise me on my stupid mistakes. I love music that makes you realize that it's not soo bad. I love watching an old couple grocery shopping. I love puppies and dogs in general. I love sleeping in the sunshine. I don't like to see someone suffering. I love to make someone's day. It makes me sad to see people with dissabilities eating alone...but I love when I see someone helping them. It makes me hope that I can one day be that unselfish with my life. I love when I see an elderly man help his wife into a restaurant (or vice versa). I think that love is a beautiful thing, even if I have yet to experience it. For the most part, I think that people are good and have amazing hearts and great personalities. Sometimes, they just let their pasts affect them for the worst. In turn, I believe that they miss it. I like a little bit of U2 and also enjoy some good rap once in awhile. I love wearing my hair curly...but will work EXTRA hard to make it straight. I hate waking up dreading something that I have to do...but I sure do like waking up smiling realizing that everything is worth it. I love stories that make you realize that nothing is as bad as we make it out to be. I like when something really hits home and makes me think. I do not like people who take life for granted or kindness for granted. I do not like people who are blunt or nit-picky. I do like when someone gets what they deserve...yes, karma is a bitch. I like when you can see an obvious pattern that makes you laugh. I do enjoy a good deal and will shop long and hard to find one. I love buying people gifts and seeing them happy. I enjoy talking...I won't lie. I do like professing my problems. I don't mind hearing someone else's point of view. I do like to give advice--I wish I was better at it. I love feeling comfortable with everything I have. I enjoy having a good day. I like those times when your jeans fit right and your shirt looks good. I like surprises, Facebook messages, and text messages that make you smile. I love mellow music that makes me want to be in a field watching the clouds go by and just talking the day away. I love a good run that relieves so much stress. I love a song that gets you super pumped. I love seeing old friends and making new ones. I love introducing my new friends to my high school friends and vice versa. I love my family so much...even though I can be pretty crappy to them...they're pretty wonderful. I love kisses from my Buffy. I love tears of happiness. I love when you cry and you feel 100 times better than before you cried. I love long drives in Allie where I can just think and listen to some music. I love hot showers, warm towels, and lots of heat in my room. I love sleeping in. I love blankets, flannel, and wool--anything to keep me warm. I love fires. I love road trips. I enjoy an occasional Taco Bell visit. I like August 10th a whole lot. I love being 18...and I know that this will sound weird, but I love being a girl. I like not having to make the first move. I like the ball being somewhere else. I like just sitting here and taking it in. I do believe that there is such a thing as "moving on." And I do believe that it is possible for someone to love again. Don't take my word for it...I've never been in love. I can be romantic, but I can be completely pessimistic at the same time. I guess I got that from someone...who made me cynnical/pessimistic about a lot of stuff. I can be optimistic too...and optimism makes me happy. I like learning secrets. I love inside jokes. But I don't like feeling left out. I do not like when someone thinks they know me better than they really do. I like when I feel small and cute and like a little girl. I like having people who look up to me. I like being a leader and I like making good grades. I don't mind being a dork sometimes. I like school. I like people who are at the same point in their lives as me. I like being me...as hard as it is to do sometimes.
I don't mind being wrong. I really don't. And this time I was. But that's okay. They were right.
Embrace it. Enjoy it. Life is too important to worry away each day.
Blue-eyed boy meets a brown-eyed girl. Oh, oh, oh, the sweetest thing.