Reminiscing
I often thought about it, after what I've seen today. I often wondered, "Is this how it'll be if it really happened?". Then I started thinking again, and then realised that it won't exactly happen this way. Circumstances change, and certain ones react differently. Not all of them would be the same like how today was. Yet, the question always comes back to mind. Yes, the dreaded question.
"Is this how it'll be if it really happened?"
Ah well. Thoughts and memories will only remains as just...a thought. An idea. A plan. Fabrications from the depths of one's mind. What matters most is now. Build the 'now' for a better 'future', a future we can never truly reach for every step we take towards the future, we transform it into 'now'.
And I like my 'now'. I don't want it to change, if possible. Maybe a few changes that will bring good to it. Otherwise, I will try to keep everything the same. This feeling in me, I will truly cherish it. And no, I will never turn back to the past again. What was done was done. What matters is now. Yes, now.
And I will never repeat the same mistake again.
Ever.
My love is for him and only him.