Dream
Yesterday's event was a tad bit odd. Tiring, to be precise. I was driving up and down to pick my sister up and all. Of course, if it was me alone, it would've been very very stressful. But I had company with me, and company was oh-so-good~ It may have been hours, but even so, I still miss him.
Amadeo.
Dearest Amadeo.
*ahem* Anyway, I had a dream on that particular night as well. Seemed a tad bit odd, but not as detailed as the "Soul-Eaten" dream I had before this.
I was at the arcade with Aiman, playing some...games. We then resorted to playing House of The Dead II. I was scolded by him for not aiming properly and 'coz of that, got meself into trouble, aye. But for some reason, we just got sucked into the game and...well, all of a sudden, I was alone.
Technically, I wasn't really alone. There were zombies after me, and I was equipped with a machine gun. Unlimited ammo, to be precise. Then again, my fear for zombies got the better of me. Forced myself to wake up and tried to keep my eyes open no matter how drowsy I was. For a while, I had my eyes concentrated on only the darkness.
Then it was back to dreamland.
The second dream...I was a waitress at a Japanese restaurant. There was these group of men in one tatami room...and it was my turn to bring in the sake for 'em. So yea, did the job. Then I went to the toilet aaaand...one of the dudes crashed in and tried to rape me. 0________0
Well, not the normal rape thingie though. He was like..."Perhaps I should cover you with centipedes and spiders~" and "Maybe you'll look even prettier with the beetles and rat skins~". *blinks* I think that's what he said. Anyway, for some reason, I was at the verge of getting killed by that pervert. Then the whole scene shifted to the part where I had to
FAKE MY DEATH.
Just to let him get caught by the police so he'll get prosecuted.
It was all 1st-person-view. I felt the officials carry my body to a bonfire and let it burn or something. The flames didn't really affect my body 'coz I was hiding in between the dry branches. How I manage to survive the fire, I don't know. Dreams bend reality. Another shift of scene, and I find myself running in the forest. My clothes were all torn and tattered. I was pretty much afraid of everything around me and started climbing a tree when I saw someone coming.
Turns out it was Aiman. He tried to convince me to get down, but I threw fruits at him instead. 0______0 or something like that.
I ended up staying at his place. The space under his bed became my bed. And he took care of me while the pervert who tried to rape/kill me was let loose, trying to look for me.
And that was it.
Wish there was more though, it seemed like a nice dream to me. Somewhat better than "Soul-Eaten", lol~ This was...fast-paced, intense...and uh...well, fun, i suppose~ Faking my death. Lol~
*shrugs* I found this while browsing through the many blog links I have with me, and I found this at Rae's blog.
http://www.goldinuniverse.com/default.asp
Out of curiosity, I decided to try it. And I got this~
Name: Alissa
Date: 11/4/2007
Colorgenics Number: 37154260
You feel as if you have missed out on a great deal that life had to offer and you go about trying to make up for past failures. Naturally at times you get depressed and you try to compensate for your 'missed opportunities' by living your life to the full. This is what, perhaps, may be described as 'living with exaggerated intensity'. In this way you feel you can break the chains of the past and start again - and it could be that you are right.
You are a very warm and emotional individual but unfortunately in the past too many people have taken advantage of this sensitive trait. You need aesthetic surroundings, or an equally sensitive and understanding partner with whom to share a warm understanding.
At times one is burdened with more than one's fair share of problems and this would appear to be your situation at present. But you are adamant - you know what you wish to achieve - and by giving a little and taking a little you may well find that the realization of your dreams could become a reality.
As of late, you have been experiencing untold stress and this is a result of continuous frustration. You haven't been taking care of all your physical needs and it's beginning to show. It would seem that you have a need to find someone to whom you can really relate - someone perhaps whose standards are as high as your own. You want to be different - to be individualistic - to stand out from the common herd. Your inherent control of your sensual instincts is restricting your ability to give yourself to open up freely but this being on your own, being lonely, often makes you feel the need to give up some of your strict standards to surrender to the general flow - to be like everyone else; a part of the herd. Deep down you regard such instincts as weaknesses to be overcome. You would like to be loved or admired for yourself alone. You demand recognition and tender loving care.
The fear that you may not be able to fulfil or realise all of your ambitions makes you work and play hard. The thought of being prevented from achieving the things you want leads you to play your part with frantic fervour.
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...I'm not so sure myself. *shrugs* 'tis rather accurate, I suppose, but with the other 13, no- 12 people in my head, I can't quite tell.
Amadeo.
Dearest Amadeo.
*ahem* Anyway, I had a dream on that particular night as well. Seemed a tad bit odd, but not as detailed as the "Soul-Eaten" dream I had before this.
I was at the arcade with Aiman, playing some...games. We then resorted to playing House of The Dead II. I was scolded by him for not aiming properly and 'coz of that, got meself into trouble, aye. But for some reason, we just got sucked into the game and...well, all of a sudden, I was alone.
Technically, I wasn't really alone. There were zombies after me, and I was equipped with a machine gun. Unlimited ammo, to be precise. Then again, my fear for zombies got the better of me. Forced myself to wake up and tried to keep my eyes open no matter how drowsy I was. For a while, I had my eyes concentrated on only the darkness.
Then it was back to dreamland.
The second dream...I was a waitress at a Japanese restaurant. There was these group of men in one tatami room...and it was my turn to bring in the sake for 'em. So yea, did the job. Then I went to the toilet aaaand...one of the dudes crashed in and tried to rape me. 0________0
Well, not the normal rape thingie though. He was like..."Perhaps I should cover you with centipedes and spiders~" and "Maybe you'll look even prettier with the beetles and rat skins~". *blinks* I think that's what he said. Anyway, for some reason, I was at the verge of getting killed by that pervert. Then the whole scene shifted to the part where I had to
FAKE MY DEATH.
Just to let him get caught by the police so he'll get prosecuted.
It was all 1st-person-view. I felt the officials carry my body to a bonfire and let it burn or something. The flames didn't really affect my body 'coz I was hiding in between the dry branches. How I manage to survive the fire, I don't know. Dreams bend reality. Another shift of scene, and I find myself running in the forest. My clothes were all torn and tattered. I was pretty much afraid of everything around me and started climbing a tree when I saw someone coming.
Turns out it was Aiman. He tried to convince me to get down, but I threw fruits at him instead. 0______0 or something like that.
I ended up staying at his place. The space under his bed became my bed. And he took care of me while the pervert who tried to rape/kill me was let loose, trying to look for me.
And that was it.
Wish there was more though, it seemed like a nice dream to me. Somewhat better than "Soul-Eaten", lol~ This was...fast-paced, intense...and uh...well, fun, i suppose~ Faking my death. Lol~
*shrugs* I found this while browsing through the many blog links I have with me, and I found this at Rae's blog.
http://www.goldinuniverse.com/default.asp
Out of curiosity, I decided to try it. And I got this~
Name: Alissa
Date: 11/4/2007
Colorgenics Number: 37154260
You feel as if you have missed out on a great deal that life had to offer and you go about trying to make up for past failures. Naturally at times you get depressed and you try to compensate for your 'missed opportunities' by living your life to the full. This is what, perhaps, may be described as 'living with exaggerated intensity'. In this way you feel you can break the chains of the past and start again - and it could be that you are right.
You are a very warm and emotional individual but unfortunately in the past too many people have taken advantage of this sensitive trait. You need aesthetic surroundings, or an equally sensitive and understanding partner with whom to share a warm understanding.
At times one is burdened with more than one's fair share of problems and this would appear to be your situation at present. But you are adamant - you know what you wish to achieve - and by giving a little and taking a little you may well find that the realization of your dreams could become a reality.
As of late, you have been experiencing untold stress and this is a result of continuous frustration. You haven't been taking care of all your physical needs and it's beginning to show. It would seem that you have a need to find someone to whom you can really relate - someone perhaps whose standards are as high as your own. You want to be different - to be individualistic - to stand out from the common herd. Your inherent control of your sensual instincts is restricting your ability to give yourself to open up freely but this being on your own, being lonely, often makes you feel the need to give up some of your strict standards to surrender to the general flow - to be like everyone else; a part of the herd. Deep down you regard such instincts as weaknesses to be overcome. You would like to be loved or admired for yourself alone. You demand recognition and tender loving care.
The fear that you may not be able to fulfil or realise all of your ambitions makes you work and play hard. The thought of being prevented from achieving the things you want leads you to play your part with frantic fervour.
_______________________________________________________________________________________________________
...I'm not so sure myself. *shrugs* 'tis rather accurate, I suppose, but with the other 13, no- 12 people in my head, I can't quite tell.