So today was quite eventful and shocking...
Today when I got home my cousin called to tell me that she had gotten Oprah tickets finally! It was my mom's bday gift to go see Oprah cuz she loves her and it took us almost a year to get tickets. I'm sooo excited cuz Oprah's my hero! Anyway I thought that would consume the news for the day, but apparently I was wrong. Most people who are reading this probably know that my dad and stepmom are adopting a baby boy from Guatamala. Well my dad called me today to tell me that they just found out that they are going to Guatamala Monday to get him. I was surprised that it was happening so fast. I didn't think they would go until at least mid March. I guess it's just now dawning on me that it's actually going to happen, you can talk about something a lot, but not believe it's real until it's staring you in the face. I'm happy and shocked and confused. I'm happy for my dad and stepmom, but I'm nervous. Nothing is ever going to be the same after Monday and I know I should be insanely excited, but I just have mixed emotions. I feel terrible for feeling this way, but I can't help it. I have all these emotions, but I feel like nobody really understands or can relate. I'm not mad about that because this is definatly not something that most people experience and I know I can talk to people about it and they will try their best to listen, but they don't understand. I can't talk to my mom about it cuz she for sure doesn't understand. It's just hard to keep this all inside...I dunno maybe writing this is my therapy!