Goin' Mach Five
I guess since it's been about a month I should post something about what's been going on.
Not much. The time is flying by. I have no idea where September went.
Back in school, which is fine. Classes are going well... I'm trying really hard to make friends (although I seriously lack social skills and am reminded of this... well, basically every day.) I met a guy from UEA in one of my classes, and while he's really nice, it's mostly just a painful reminder that:
A. I'm really awkward and not so good at directing conversations and
B. I really miss my British friends
I still talk to the England kids quite a bit, though admittedly not as much as I would like to. There was a period of time when I was talking to Mark every day for some reason--I don't know really know why--but then things might have gone a little too far, and now we only speak every two to three days.
One of the only things getting me through right now is the thought of going back to England in May. Monica and I are planning a two week trip--she'd spend one week in Denmark with her friend Kat, I'd spend one week on the East Coast with Maria, hopefully seeing Chuck as well--then we'd spend one week in England, split between Norwich and London. Gosh, I can't even wait. It feels so good to be planning trips again--it feels really weird not to be travelling at all, I have to admit. And, to make things even better, Maria is seriously trying to come to Arizona for spring break!!!! YAY! I miss my England BFF so much it's not even funny.
Let's see, what else? I love my internship. It has seriously made me reconsider my options for the spring and next year. I figure I will have some kind of desk job in the spring (receptionist or something... crosses fingers)... something not too permanent so if I do pick up and leave for grad school 8 months later, it's not a huge, huge deal. Also, I have decided not to take the GRE. The workshop I am in right now has really made me re-think if I could really stand any more workshops in general. I don't know if I can take any more "this is the craft, this is the right way" shoved down my throat. I know I'm not the best writer in there. I know I'm young. And I know I've led a really happy life. Apparently that means I can't be a good writer.
So, as graduation looms (December 16--scary, huh?), I will still be applying to grad schools (even though my heart is no longer really in it), just ones that don't require the GRE. If I get in anywhere, we'll make some decisions then. If not, I'm going to look for a job in publishing. I think. In an ideal world, I could get a job at the Press right after graduation, but it's a small press and I'm still not that great at what I do, so I don't think that's very realistic. I guess we'll have to see.
That heavy stuff aside, everything else is going well. England feels like a dream, and being back feels just the same as when I left. Sort of. I definitely feel like I hang out with people a lot, just in smaller social settings. I'm not interested in "going out" (aka the bars, clubs, etc.) any more. The one time I did go to the bar and had some drinks, it was trouble. So, no more of that. And anyway, I'm just as happy to stay home watching a movie or just hanging out with whoever's around.
Oh, and I love "The Office." It's my guilty, guilty addiction. I can pretty much be found quoting it all the time. And, aside from Monica, who hears me watching it all the time, or Kevin and Martin, who I hardly ever see, nobody else I know watches it. So nobody else gets it. I have so many great things I could throw in in this entry, but no. Sniff, sniff. Just no.
I guess that's about it. I'm pretty boring. I'm getting really excited for Christmas, which, IS LESS THAN THREE MONTHS AWAY! Yay everyone! And, yeah. Dinkin flicka.
Not much. The time is flying by. I have no idea where September went.
Back in school, which is fine. Classes are going well... I'm trying really hard to make friends (although I seriously lack social skills and am reminded of this... well, basically every day.) I met a guy from UEA in one of my classes, and while he's really nice, it's mostly just a painful reminder that:
A. I'm really awkward and not so good at directing conversations and
B. I really miss my British friends
I still talk to the England kids quite a bit, though admittedly not as much as I would like to. There was a period of time when I was talking to Mark every day for some reason--I don't know really know why--but then things might have gone a little too far, and now we only speak every two to three days.
One of the only things getting me through right now is the thought of going back to England in May. Monica and I are planning a two week trip--she'd spend one week in Denmark with her friend Kat, I'd spend one week on the East Coast with Maria, hopefully seeing Chuck as well--then we'd spend one week in England, split between Norwich and London. Gosh, I can't even wait. It feels so good to be planning trips again--it feels really weird not to be travelling at all, I have to admit. And, to make things even better, Maria is seriously trying to come to Arizona for spring break!!!! YAY! I miss my England BFF so much it's not even funny.
Let's see, what else? I love my internship. It has seriously made me reconsider my options for the spring and next year. I figure I will have some kind of desk job in the spring (receptionist or something... crosses fingers)... something not too permanent so if I do pick up and leave for grad school 8 months later, it's not a huge, huge deal. Also, I have decided not to take the GRE. The workshop I am in right now has really made me re-think if I could really stand any more workshops in general. I don't know if I can take any more "this is the craft, this is the right way" shoved down my throat. I know I'm not the best writer in there. I know I'm young. And I know I've led a really happy life. Apparently that means I can't be a good writer.
So, as graduation looms (December 16--scary, huh?), I will still be applying to grad schools (even though my heart is no longer really in it), just ones that don't require the GRE. If I get in anywhere, we'll make some decisions then. If not, I'm going to look for a job in publishing. I think. In an ideal world, I could get a job at the Press right after graduation, but it's a small press and I'm still not that great at what I do, so I don't think that's very realistic. I guess we'll have to see.
That heavy stuff aside, everything else is going well. England feels like a dream, and being back feels just the same as when I left. Sort of. I definitely feel like I hang out with people a lot, just in smaller social settings. I'm not interested in "going out" (aka the bars, clubs, etc.) any more. The one time I did go to the bar and had some drinks, it was trouble. So, no more of that. And anyway, I'm just as happy to stay home watching a movie or just hanging out with whoever's around.
Oh, and I love "The Office." It's my guilty, guilty addiction. I can pretty much be found quoting it all the time. And, aside from Monica, who hears me watching it all the time, or Kevin and Martin, who I hardly ever see, nobody else I know watches it. So nobody else gets it. I have so many great things I could throw in in this entry, but no. Sniff, sniff. Just no.
I guess that's about it. I'm pretty boring. I'm getting really excited for Christmas, which, IS LESS THAN THREE MONTHS AWAY! Yay everyone! And, yeah. Dinkin flicka.