Late Night Thoughts
Okay, it's not that late, but I'm an old lady and go to bed way early... Yes, I realize when I turned 20 I morphed into a crabby old fogie and no, I'm not proud of it.
Anyway, I just got back from Tempe. Jackie, Kelsey and I ate at a really crappy restaurant (but still had fun throwing things off the balcony at the valet attendants), then bought moustaches from the dollar bin at Target and drove around trying to pick up guys. Aaaaaah... all in a night's work.
My allergies are so bad right now from those stupid moustaches. And itchy. If I break out in a moustache rash as a result from tonight I don't even know what I'm going to do.
Okay, all of THAT aside, I was doing some thinking. This year, as a result of people moving, people changing, etc. I've had to start making new friends. It sounds a lot like I'm complaining about not enjoying the time with the people I hang out with--that couldn't be further from the truth. I just realized that I don't remember how to make friends.
That sounds silly, but I'm not even kidding. Since college began, I've been with my high school friends. The thing is, I love them--they're funny and awesome and we always have such a good time--so I've never felt the need to really branch out because I've always been so happy friends-wise. This year though, I've had to adjust to the fact that the bulk of my closest friends are not in Tucson.
I'm just so socially awkward. I don't talk in class or really try to put myself out there because I get so nervous about saying or doing the wrong thing. I know that's no reason not to say anything at all, but that's why I don't. I want to meet new people in England especially. So, I guess just this whole "learning how to make friends" thing, which you're supposed to learn when you're, like, three, is really hard for me. I'm trying to be more open though and not as shy. I promise.
As I write this, I'm really, really tired, so if this isn't coherent, I'm sorry. If you read it at all though, I really appreciate it. It's nice to know I have a FRIEND out there already :-)
Good night.
Anyway, I just got back from Tempe. Jackie, Kelsey and I ate at a really crappy restaurant (but still had fun throwing things off the balcony at the valet attendants), then bought moustaches from the dollar bin at Target and drove around trying to pick up guys. Aaaaaah... all in a night's work.
My allergies are so bad right now from those stupid moustaches. And itchy. If I break out in a moustache rash as a result from tonight I don't even know what I'm going to do.
Okay, all of THAT aside, I was doing some thinking. This year, as a result of people moving, people changing, etc. I've had to start making new friends. It sounds a lot like I'm complaining about not enjoying the time with the people I hang out with--that couldn't be further from the truth. I just realized that I don't remember how to make friends.
That sounds silly, but I'm not even kidding. Since college began, I've been with my high school friends. The thing is, I love them--they're funny and awesome and we always have such a good time--so I've never felt the need to really branch out because I've always been so happy friends-wise. This year though, I've had to adjust to the fact that the bulk of my closest friends are not in Tucson.
I'm just so socially awkward. I don't talk in class or really try to put myself out there because I get so nervous about saying or doing the wrong thing. I know that's no reason not to say anything at all, but that's why I don't. I want to meet new people in England especially. So, I guess just this whole "learning how to make friends" thing, which you're supposed to learn when you're, like, three, is really hard for me. I'm trying to be more open though and not as shy. I promise.
As I write this, I'm really, really tired, so if this isn't coherent, I'm sorry. If you read it at all though, I really appreciate it. It's nice to know I have a FRIEND out there already :-)
Good night.