procrastinating.
even though i woke up at 8 this morning to start studying for finals, and i've been to 2 different coffee shops, i still feel like i've accomplished nothing. i even felt guilty for taking a 20 minute break to check out (and spend money i don't have on) old records on phoenix street. this whole spending thing has GOT to stop. i spent $5 on burritos last night after drinking too much free wine and still feel guilty. guilty guilty guilty. and i still don't like wine.
the dog that had puppies in my bathroom is back with us until her milk ducts dry up so she can be spayed. i woke up to her stinky face on my pillow begging me to take her out today. i remembered that it's been exactly 2 months since i lost my best friend. god, what a fucking mess that day was. i still feel like my limbs are missing.
i bought a mini bottle of new shampoo so i have a reason to shower.
nothing new is going on in my life. i have finals next week and can't wait to be 1 semester closer to graduating, though the thought of having to figure out what i'm doing with the rest of my life is completely fucking horrifying. i start my second job in 1 week, and turned down 1 of the research projects i wanted to work on. i figured that i turned down everything else that would make me happy (and hinder me from paying rent), why not turn this down too?
one of the few people that i consider a close friend in this town is obsessed with a girl and doesn't call or drop by anymore. i wish my guy friends wouldn't do this to me. it really sucks to know that my friendship isn't appreciated.
i feel guilty for wasting 15 minutes of my life typing this. back to phagocytosis and lophophorates.
the dog that had puppies in my bathroom is back with us until her milk ducts dry up so she can be spayed. i woke up to her stinky face on my pillow begging me to take her out today. i remembered that it's been exactly 2 months since i lost my best friend. god, what a fucking mess that day was. i still feel like my limbs are missing.
i bought a mini bottle of new shampoo so i have a reason to shower.
nothing new is going on in my life. i have finals next week and can't wait to be 1 semester closer to graduating, though the thought of having to figure out what i'm doing with the rest of my life is completely fucking horrifying. i start my second job in 1 week, and turned down 1 of the research projects i wanted to work on. i figured that i turned down everything else that would make me happy (and hinder me from paying rent), why not turn this down too?
one of the few people that i consider a close friend in this town is obsessed with a girl and doesn't call or drop by anymore. i wish my guy friends wouldn't do this to me. it really sucks to know that my friendship isn't appreciated.
i feel guilty for wasting 15 minutes of my life typing this. back to phagocytosis and lophophorates.