falling
can't say that i've felt this way for a long time. likened to working behind a coffee counter smelling beans wearing red, watching the sea of heads for any number of highschool sweethearts who would come to see me, virgin dunkin donuts worker, free from any scars, just waiting, anticipating who would it be? and now i am still anticipating, but now its just anticipating his face, anticipating his touch and his words, our next interaction. i am taken and its all over. i guess that it is just all over. i can tell that this is a beginning like none i've had in a long time. so easily able to tell scb, yes i am falling for someone else .i am falling for the most obscure choice, the most obvious choice, the choice that leaves me no choice and how will this proceed, i don't know but he pulls me on and he pullls me out, his seduction is complete and wrapping, the few sweet words, just a month, a month of thinking and hoping, a month of wanting and looking, more? can i take any more or will there be a culmination here soon. my legs get hot. my face gets wet. i cannot hold back. i am afraid both ways. i want him to understand this. keep challenging me. keep bringing me flowers. call me when you are walking around, don't stop...don't stop...