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so i feel like i need to write today. i am sitting in the back of the pavillion auditorium in the oob listening to my dad do his routine for 400 plus people. i have a massive headache and am sipping on cold starbucks coffee. i am so glad that they have internet here, i wish i could find an advil the size of my head to chew on. today after the crying last night, after the crying this morning after all of the crying and cajoling, i slipped over to my forver home at 91 pine st. and put my engagement ring into the tequila box that holds his incense. then i called him for a lunch date. more crying. more hugging. he came to my house to get his video camera and digital camera and then asked for it back. it was already back there there have it back. it felt good to give it back. to not have it. to not have it to take off and put back on and twirl it. i don't know. i do not know. but i know that its intermission. what a headache. what a heartache. i hurt.