not in order at all...makes sense to me

[alley_carter]

If i had known that in Febuary 2005 I would have been pried away from the love love of my life
sobbing
him in iraq for seven months
promising I would always love him
If I had known that in late August 2005 he would come back and our love would not be the same,
it would never be the same
If I would have know in june 2005 I would give birth to a beautiful miracle
If I would have known January 2006 my marriage had really taken it's last hit
If I would have known febuary 2006 that my marriage was a lie all along
but she was there for you, don't worry
If I had known that in 2004 I would lose a life that was growing inside of me
If I had known 2004 that new life would give me hope

If I would have known that in 2003 I would meet you and that you would make me come together and then slowly tear me apart...
and when we married in 2004 it would not be forever...

If I would have known then in 2002 when I crossed the border of california on my way out to pennslvaniya that the boyfriend back home would soon not matter

and everything that mattered would cease to exist
and my best friend would cease to exist
and my life as I had known it would cease to exist

maybe its best
i never did