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i think i have to put my dog down this week the cancer is attacking her face or something and my dad doesnt want it to start affecting her mood and have her just snap without her even knowing it and since she is so strong she could kill one of the other dogs or hurt us really bad before we can even do anything and no one will make the choose of when to let her go they are making me i know it is mean to think but once she will be gone i will be kinda relieved because she doesnt eat she is so skinny her face is so deformed and i cant even look at her without crying and it will be nice not listening to her try and itch all the wounds and just knowing she wont hurt anymore plus i wont have to go bed every night wondering when she will go i just wanted her to go at home i cant take her to the vets and just leave her just thinking oh they will be back to get me and i can go home but i think she will be too bad by the time that comes and i dont want to be selfish and act like a brat so her end is near my mom made a paw print of her for me to put in a frame so that was really nice well i guess in happy news my cousin and i didnt really want to tell the family about me moving to va but my uncle the other day told me that i should talk to my cousin about moving me out there with her after her first year and funding my education and getting a apt i was so shocked that he wants that my dad didnt say anything my mom is excited and will be sad but she wants me experience being out there i think my aunt feels im trying to live of my cousing and her tribal money so my cousin and i like to piss her off about it i want to work out htere and go to school but my cousin tells me if i go to school she will pay rent becasue school is important which is cool but i dont want her to be my only source of income i know i wont be able to make it on my own but it is nice to knwo that she is so intent on helping me oh yeah i hurt myside i passed out in the garage like 5 times the other day from being so high so that was neat knowing my parents could have walked in a seen me on the floor all spazed out and my not knowing what i did so that is my life right now it is kinda crazy but i hope it all gets better soon big changes are ahead and i am really looking forward to it