atonal thoughts
did a whole lot of nothing this weekend, well thats not entirely true
cant remember what i did on friday, it must have not been that important or exciting
saturday i slept in really late, watched Boogie Nights, and then hung out with Sarah and others for a little while, doing nothing with other people is a lot better then doing nothing by yourself, indeed
came home, watched I Am Sam, amazing movie, enough said
sunday, woke up early (11) i didnt want to, especially after staying up real late the past night, started making a sweet new song on my computer using weird previously recorded drum loops i did with Sam and Tristan a while ago, but i accidentaly lost it, oh well, i can do it again, went over to codys house, attempted to play music using hand drums and distorted guitar and bass, but Punk and Hand Drumming really dont mix at all, sadly
at around 5 30 i went over to Steves and jammed with a lot of awsome random people for a while, we did some improv stuff for a while but then this other guitarist came and this guy could play a plethora of RadioHead tunes
if you know me you know that RadioHead are my ultimate obsession, besides Mike Patton, but moving on
we played for about 4 or 5 hours, i helped this girl out there who lives in the appartment, she was trying to figure out how to sing the harmony to this Beatles song, so we worked on that for a while, hopefully she got it
besides that, this weekend hasnt been very eventful, not a lot of drugs either, which is unusual, but not bad at all, except ive had a headache, but i think thats just lack of sleep, wuteva
i keep on thinking that im missing something, like im missing a part of me thats vital, ive felt like this since summer ended, its not making me depressed or anything, i feel like i lack purpose, it's weird, also kinda like im stuck in limbo, between two meaningful stages of life, where i kinda just do stuff everyday, some mandatory, some not, but nothing that makes me feel like a vital part of anything, it's such a general feeling that its hard to describe, i also have no one close to really talk to anymore, most of those people have either left, or ive lost a lot of contact with them cause they're still in highschool, so ive become even more introverted then i used to be, or maybe, im doing this to myself, not talking to anyone, not reaching out, one again im one big question mark of confusion, i think im so used to being told what to do, that now that i have a lot more freedom then i used to, i dont know what to do with it, or what i can do, or what i cant, can anyone else even understand what im talking about? do i even understand?
im going to stop typing now
cant remember what i did on friday, it must have not been that important or exciting
saturday i slept in really late, watched Boogie Nights, and then hung out with Sarah and others for a little while, doing nothing with other people is a lot better then doing nothing by yourself, indeed
came home, watched I Am Sam, amazing movie, enough said
sunday, woke up early (11) i didnt want to, especially after staying up real late the past night, started making a sweet new song on my computer using weird previously recorded drum loops i did with Sam and Tristan a while ago, but i accidentaly lost it, oh well, i can do it again, went over to codys house, attempted to play music using hand drums and distorted guitar and bass, but Punk and Hand Drumming really dont mix at all, sadly
at around 5 30 i went over to Steves and jammed with a lot of awsome random people for a while, we did some improv stuff for a while but then this other guitarist came and this guy could play a plethora of RadioHead tunes
if you know me you know that RadioHead are my ultimate obsession, besides Mike Patton, but moving on
we played for about 4 or 5 hours, i helped this girl out there who lives in the appartment, she was trying to figure out how to sing the harmony to this Beatles song, so we worked on that for a while, hopefully she got it
besides that, this weekend hasnt been very eventful, not a lot of drugs either, which is unusual, but not bad at all, except ive had a headache, but i think thats just lack of sleep, wuteva
i keep on thinking that im missing something, like im missing a part of me thats vital, ive felt like this since summer ended, its not making me depressed or anything, i feel like i lack purpose, it's weird, also kinda like im stuck in limbo, between two meaningful stages of life, where i kinda just do stuff everyday, some mandatory, some not, but nothing that makes me feel like a vital part of anything, it's such a general feeling that its hard to describe, i also have no one close to really talk to anymore, most of those people have either left, or ive lost a lot of contact with them cause they're still in highschool, so ive become even more introverted then i used to be, or maybe, im doing this to myself, not talking to anyone, not reaching out, one again im one big question mark of confusion, i think im so used to being told what to do, that now that i have a lot more freedom then i used to, i dont know what to do with it, or what i can do, or what i cant, can anyone else even understand what im talking about? do i even understand?
im going to stop typing now