its been almost a month

[alldressedup07]

so much goes on...hmm.. if u dnt knwo its bc u never talk to em and you hsould more often but a quck recap...newpaper, michigan summer camp, drawing and painting, him, him, him(all different hims-- the bet!- concert- brother- school is horrible but im doign okay- i live off tv- sit and think, realize hwo awful adn stupid i am- friends-- will it rahter i ever change- peolple chage and i guess its okay as long as they dnt hurt you... hmmm... behind in school- im guilty- im unorganized and i have a lot on my plate hope i cna eat it all...i love music..i love guitar.. i love shopping- bowling, pool, samarai- i lova ya and all yall :) lunch is alwasy good- not alwys- lots of the time... what should i do for my birthday?! its march 21! yay! i wnt to see big fish- yah there is more to that- onyl hell get that- and he doent read my live journal so oh well, but if i knew a way to do it, i would, or alteast try, i think. i wnt to do so much, yet im negative and lack confidnece and the list of my faluts- TV! what do htey think every time it comes up- i still hold some of those same feeligns kinda wish i could go back to meds wihtout the otehr half... peoepl are mean, but to those u shoiul dbe nicer. god help me bc each day is hard, with its new challenges that i cnat face alone, send me teh people to help me (bless her and her family)adn the spriti to hlep me wow my randomness amazes me- its back to the updating everydya bc its theraputic. but then i dnt have time to write a good oen that says everything and i dnt leik to do it half way- so maybe i should tlk less about trivial things anbd more about what it all emans- leik nto the single jokes wiht a firned, but what that friendship is and all?! i auno, i never know- i pretned really well-

all dressed up yet nobody knows
bruised and broken..but still breathing
first cut is the deepest