Yet another one
Well I guess as one might be able to see, I'm starting to get "better" as they would call me. I've gotten more energy and motivation to write in here, however, I have not written in my journal at home for a very long time. It's way too painful to actually think about things. But I'm working on it. I've tried very hard to not think of too many things at one time. I went to the doctor the other day and was diagnosed with an eating disorder and they want me to keep a journal of that now, which I haven't done yet. But I mean, I knew I had an eating disorder, but it wasn't an intentional one like most. I didn't think I was fat, nor did I have a problem with my looks. I just didn't have time to eat...ever...or I would eat, but then get myself so worked up or overworked that I would get sick. Sick until the point that when I was at the doctor the other day, I weighed only about 100 pds. and for those of you who know me well...I've always weighed around 140-150 so to lose that much weight was not good for me. And then they took away all of my medications, so I have to learn how to deal with things on my own, completly on my own, with no medications at all....ahhhh!!! that's going to be hell.
And now for the offensive part of this public entry. Last night at work was extremly aggitating becuase I was running for drive thru and Amanda was supposed to be presenting...key word there...supposed to be! She was sitting back in the office talking to Jenn. Okay, no big deal, but then when I called her up about oh let's see...I think that time it was only 6 times and she still didn't come up. I was trying to fries, get drinks ready, run and present all at the same time, with big huge orders on my screen and tons of people at front counter, and that doens't work very well. SO she finally comes up, after all the orders have been handed out and says, oh i'm sorry, did you need help? FUck her anyways, yes I needed help, that's why I called her up and asked for her help, but apparently that doesn't matter. When she needs help I always try to come up right away if I can, which is most of the time, but not her, heaven forbid I ask HER for help. SO yeah, I was pissy most of the rest of the night. But...
Friday, prom day, I'm going out for lunch with Tim ;-) I'm going to pick him up after I get outta school, and then we're coming back here, so he can go in and get my check for me, and then we're going out for lunch and then I'm assuming I'm taking him home again. Then after prom, we're going bowling and then partying at his house, or so he says(haha, jk) we will. Then I'm sure if I'm going to stay there, or if I'm going to go home, haven't decided yet. But I h ave to remember to call and reserve a lane for bowling and get people's money, I'm paying for me, Tammy and Tim, on Friday, but that's it, anybody else has to pay for themselves! K, well that's about it for this very public public entry. later.
And now for the offensive part of this public entry. Last night at work was extremly aggitating becuase I was running for drive thru and Amanda was supposed to be presenting...key word there...supposed to be! She was sitting back in the office talking to Jenn. Okay, no big deal, but then when I called her up about oh let's see...I think that time it was only 6 times and she still didn't come up. I was trying to fries, get drinks ready, run and present all at the same time, with big huge orders on my screen and tons of people at front counter, and that doens't work very well. SO she finally comes up, after all the orders have been handed out and says, oh i'm sorry, did you need help? FUck her anyways, yes I needed help, that's why I called her up and asked for her help, but apparently that doesn't matter. When she needs help I always try to come up right away if I can, which is most of the time, but not her, heaven forbid I ask HER for help. SO yeah, I was pissy most of the rest of the night. But...
Friday, prom day, I'm going out for lunch with Tim ;-) I'm going to pick him up after I get outta school, and then we're coming back here, so he can go in and get my check for me, and then we're going out for lunch and then I'm assuming I'm taking him home again. Then after prom, we're going bowling and then partying at his house, or so he says(haha, jk) we will. Then I'm sure if I'm going to stay there, or if I'm going to go home, haven't decided yet. But I h ave to remember to call and reserve a lane for bowling and get people's money, I'm paying for me, Tammy and Tim, on Friday, but that's it, anybody else has to pay for themselves! K, well that's about it for this very public public entry. later.