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i am so sad today. and i feel like i should be so happy.
i had such a great weekend, met a lot of good people.
john gets back today.
but i am so upset that i didnt even get a text message, a phone call, anything from him this whole trip.
i havent cried, i havnt been sad untill now.
and i hate it when i do this becaus ei havnt even done anything to get this.
no i didnt want him to go but i cant help it.
i trusted him.
i knew he wanted a vacation for a weekend.
so why does it have to be that he didnt even have 5 min to call his girlfriend and say heyyy i love you im gonna go but i wanted to see how you were doing.
if i did this to him he would be pretty upset, and i know when he gets home and i confront him aobut this hes going to try to convince me that its not a big deal, that everyone eould of done it, and prolly that nothing happened. you know what....whateve.r im just so angry. i love him and i dont want to leave him but even his own mom says she sees me do things for him all the time and he doesnt seem to appriciate them or even notice i do them. what does that say. i dunno. hes such a great guy i jsut wish he would think of me more and know that i do have feelings and that i do rely on conversation as a way to make sure we get thru things.
ugh.
i had such a great weekend, met a lot of good people.
john gets back today.
but i am so upset that i didnt even get a text message, a phone call, anything from him this whole trip.
i havent cried, i havnt been sad untill now.
and i hate it when i do this becaus ei havnt even done anything to get this.
no i didnt want him to go but i cant help it.
i trusted him.
i knew he wanted a vacation for a weekend.
so why does it have to be that he didnt even have 5 min to call his girlfriend and say heyyy i love you im gonna go but i wanted to see how you were doing.
if i did this to him he would be pretty upset, and i know when he gets home and i confront him aobut this hes going to try to convince me that its not a big deal, that everyone eould of done it, and prolly that nothing happened. you know what....whateve.r im just so angry. i love him and i dont want to leave him but even his own mom says she sees me do things for him all the time and he doesnt seem to appriciate them or even notice i do them. what does that say. i dunno. hes such a great guy i jsut wish he would think of me more and know that i do have feelings and that i do rely on conversation as a way to make sure we get thru things.
ugh.