Reflection
I loved him. I fell in love with him. And I don't think anyone can blame me.
but soon it turned into just love. the kind that lasts, like you feel for your family, your friends, people you look out for.
And now there's this hole that James and I are trying to fill. In just 6 short months, he entered our lives and then blew out again. He thought of him as family.
I wasn't in love with him. not anymore. and then to have our words, my words twisted out of context. Taken away from their meaning. I've been honest. I told them everything. I've done all I can do.
I only wish them to be happy now. And honestly... well... what does it matter. All I've learned over the past month or so is that James is the only one I can trust. That I have to keep everyone at arm's length and be careful about what I say. That is really is me against the world. And that I'm right to stay home and away from everyone. and that I should never write again.
but soon it turned into just love. the kind that lasts, like you feel for your family, your friends, people you look out for.
And now there's this hole that James and I are trying to fill. In just 6 short months, he entered our lives and then blew out again. He thought of him as family.
I wasn't in love with him. not anymore. and then to have our words, my words twisted out of context. Taken away from their meaning. I've been honest. I told them everything. I've done all I can do.
I only wish them to be happy now. And honestly... well... what does it matter. All I've learned over the past month or so is that James is the only one I can trust. That I have to keep everyone at arm's length and be careful about what I say. That is really is me against the world. And that I'm right to stay home and away from everyone. and that I should never write again.