2006
Wow, I can't believe that it's already 2006. How did it come so fast. It feels like we just started school and now I'm half way through my senior year. It's scary. The hardest part is knowing that I'm in the year of my graduation now. I'm finding that as the year progresses it's getting harder and harder to think about graduation. At the beginning of the year I was excited, but now the thought of it just makes me so sad and I feel like I just wanna cry. It's like I have so much that I have left to accomplish before I graduate (I'd love to have a boyfriend and not be the loser that looks back on hs and says I never dated), and I have so little time to get it done in. Plus, no matter how much I hang out with my friends, there is never enough time to do all the things we want to do. We have so much left to do before we all go our seperate ways. Plus, now that I know you guys, it's really hard to accept the fact that next year I'm leaving and you will still be here. I can't leave I really can't. But then I don't want to stay at the same time. I'm so excited to move on and see what the future holds. I just wish I could stay here and have everything be the same while gaining those new experiences. But of course I can't have it both ways. The whole thing makes me sad. I just know graduation night I'm gonna be crying so hard. It was easier when I was in denial that I was a senior and that I'm graduatating.