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Wow. I'm a jerk.
I never really knew this much, until now.
How else could it explain the fact that I, in anger at my dad and his drug selling habbits, packed up and moved to another state to live with my mom.
Without saying goodbye or anything to Allie.
Without calling her.
Without anything.
I'm an ass.
She'll probably never forgive me, considering she was going through much worse than I but I had to come back.
The entire time I was in North Dakota, I kept thinking about her. I just didn't know what I'd say if I managed to pick up the phone and call her. in reality i called about 9274392874 times, just never dialing the last number, or hearing her voice and hanging up. How do you say sorry for hurting someone like that?
I'm back at my dads. Talking to the principal tomorrow about re-enrolling.
I never really knew this much, until now.
How else could it explain the fact that I, in anger at my dad and his drug selling habbits, packed up and moved to another state to live with my mom.
Without saying goodbye or anything to Allie.
Without calling her.
Without anything.
I'm an ass.
She'll probably never forgive me, considering she was going through much worse than I but I had to come back.
The entire time I was in North Dakota, I kept thinking about her. I just didn't know what I'd say if I managed to pick up the phone and call her. in reality i called about 9274392874 times, just never dialing the last number, or hearing her voice and hanging up. How do you say sorry for hurting someone like that?
I'm back at my dads. Talking to the principal tomorrow about re-enrolling.