i miss his arms already
The weekend came as fast as it went. :( I miss him.
Milestone : Saturday, we went to the commissary together, to get groceries and such. It was nice being able to walk around in there. Lol. I honestly love that place. Ok, anyway, so we were driving through base and listening to country music and I was getting pissed because we were talking about money and I was overwhelmed of course, because I don't make that much money so its always impossible for me to save for anything these days. So I got my phone and called Tim. He's a fucking big reason I'm in this mess, because of that fucking car of his that I have. And he answer's and says hey baby. I instantly started crying. I'm not sure what it was but I just started balling. And I was telling Tim about the cell phone and the car and how I can't afford anything, and I'm barely getting by, and he said calm down baby, don't be sad, I love you I'll pay the cellphone so you can settle down. So that made me cry harder and I agreed and got off the phone. And I kept crying and mark pulled over abruptly on the side of the road and ran over to my side of the truck and flung the door open and held me. Whispered in my ear that he will never leave me, he will always love me and he will always take care of me. It made me feel so much better even though we can't read the future and I don't know what we'll be in 10 years but in that moment, that's all I needed to hear. He waited til I was done crying, kissed me a few times, asked if I was okay and then we headed home.
On another note, john got married a few days ago. Congratulations to him and his new wife. I seriously hope he has changed enough to realize what a marriage takes to keep it going. Honestly. I'm sure they are very happy and I'm happy for them.
Tim from the phone call, clearly still wants me. He texted me a couple of nights ago and told me he wants me to move to KY, he'll pay for it. That he needs me in his life so bad. That he made such a mistake leaving me here. Shame on you. No, you shouldn't have left me here, I did everything for him, and he still had the nerve to put his hands on me. No. I hope he regrets losing me every day of his life. I hope it hurts.
I'm quitting my job in December or right before Thanksgiving anyway. We're going to sell my car for parts, and cancel my cell phone and I'll get on his. Then that'll save money of course and whenever we get restationed then I'll register back at school and get a part time job. No reason for me to slave day in and day out anymore. I'm so excited to quit lol you honestly have no idea! It makes me happy thinking about it. Only 2 more months of this garbage! Yesssssss
Milestone : Saturday, we went to the commissary together, to get groceries and such. It was nice being able to walk around in there. Lol. I honestly love that place. Ok, anyway, so we were driving through base and listening to country music and I was getting pissed because we were talking about money and I was overwhelmed of course, because I don't make that much money so its always impossible for me to save for anything these days. So I got my phone and called Tim. He's a fucking big reason I'm in this mess, because of that fucking car of his that I have. And he answer's and says hey baby. I instantly started crying. I'm not sure what it was but I just started balling. And I was telling Tim about the cell phone and the car and how I can't afford anything, and I'm barely getting by, and he said calm down baby, don't be sad, I love you I'll pay the cellphone so you can settle down. So that made me cry harder and I agreed and got off the phone. And I kept crying and mark pulled over abruptly on the side of the road and ran over to my side of the truck and flung the door open and held me. Whispered in my ear that he will never leave me, he will always love me and he will always take care of me. It made me feel so much better even though we can't read the future and I don't know what we'll be in 10 years but in that moment, that's all I needed to hear. He waited til I was done crying, kissed me a few times, asked if I was okay and then we headed home.
On another note, john got married a few days ago. Congratulations to him and his new wife. I seriously hope he has changed enough to realize what a marriage takes to keep it going. Honestly. I'm sure they are very happy and I'm happy for them.
Tim from the phone call, clearly still wants me. He texted me a couple of nights ago and told me he wants me to move to KY, he'll pay for it. That he needs me in his life so bad. That he made such a mistake leaving me here. Shame on you. No, you shouldn't have left me here, I did everything for him, and he still had the nerve to put his hands on me. No. I hope he regrets losing me every day of his life. I hope it hurts.
I'm quitting my job in December or right before Thanksgiving anyway. We're going to sell my car for parts, and cancel my cell phone and I'll get on his. Then that'll save money of course and whenever we get restationed then I'll register back at school and get a part time job. No reason for me to slave day in and day out anymore. I'm so excited to quit lol you honestly have no idea! It makes me happy thinking about it. Only 2 more months of this garbage! Yesssssss