drowning
I called at 9 pm. He didn't ignore the call but he didn't answer either. I didn't know his voicemail beeped ... and I was talking to my aunt and said "I don't know what to say" then I waited and said "God I'm in so much pain" and I hung up. Now I'm realizing I probably left that on his fucking voicemail. :( fuck my life.
I keep telling myself in a day or two he'll come around. He'll text and say he's been busy. Even though we'll both know he wasn't. I'm so disappointed. I'm rerreading our text messages. I see no indication that this was going to happen. God. Help me. I'm going to need strength to get through this. I'm breaking down I'm so scared of not knowing how I'm going to handle this.
I wonder how he's doing this. How he's taking it. I know he has strong feelings for me. I know he cares. Is this mic on? Okay. Its time to rip up the letter. I'm sleeping all day tomorrow since I have no school. I'm turning my phone off, closing the blinds, bury my body in all my blankets and pillows and having a good sloppy cry and falling asleep.
I keep telling myself in a day or two he'll come around. He'll text and say he's been busy. Even though we'll both know he wasn't. I'm so disappointed. I'm rerreading our text messages. I see no indication that this was going to happen. God. Help me. I'm going to need strength to get through this. I'm breaking down I'm so scared of not knowing how I'm going to handle this.
I wonder how he's doing this. How he's taking it. I know he has strong feelings for me. I know he cares. Is this mic on? Okay. Its time to rip up the letter. I'm sleeping all day tomorrow since I have no school. I'm turning my phone off, closing the blinds, bury my body in all my blankets and pillows and having a good sloppy cry and falling asleep.