GOSH!
god....why am i so dumb...i mean seriously...why do i say i dont want to do something when i really do...why do i feel jealous when there is nothing for me to be jealous of?why am i so fucking selfish....and why do i make things so difficult!UHHHHH i dont cant even understand myself....WTF!!!
anyway.....besides this evening, this past weekend was good....graduation was friday....sad but happy...then i went to project grad...some parts were good, but i got tired fast....then sat after getting back from project grad and getting 5 hours of sleep i went to mass to my cousins graduation party!!saw that huge fam of ours....always good always good...then today i went to another cousins baby shower....that was fun....lots of good food and cute baby presents.....makes me kinda want one(baby)....lol not right now tho...maybe like 10 years from now haha....
so yeah then we drove home...got here around 10:30...and i had to restart my crap computer about 5 times...not even exaggerating...its so dumb...then i got emotional or something...i dont even now...thats whats i wrote up there....and i still feel that way at the moment....but yeah....and now no ones online and im wide awake with nobody to talk to...super....im such a loser...
i also feel like crying...but i wont get into that...GOSH!!!i just want to slap myself....but i wont cuz that would be weird and i dont think it would help.....so yeah...guess thats all for now.....not really sure what im doing tomorrow cuz my life sucks like that....but we'll see....later...bye
<3Alex aka BUB!
anyway.....besides this evening, this past weekend was good....graduation was friday....sad but happy...then i went to project grad...some parts were good, but i got tired fast....then sat after getting back from project grad and getting 5 hours of sleep i went to mass to my cousins graduation party!!saw that huge fam of ours....always good always good...then today i went to another cousins baby shower....that was fun....lots of good food and cute baby presents.....makes me kinda want one(baby)....lol not right now tho...maybe like 10 years from now haha....
so yeah then we drove home...got here around 10:30...and i had to restart my crap computer about 5 times...not even exaggerating...its so dumb...then i got emotional or something...i dont even now...thats whats i wrote up there....and i still feel that way at the moment....but yeah....and now no ones online and im wide awake with nobody to talk to...super....im such a loser...
i also feel like crying...but i wont get into that...GOSH!!!i just want to slap myself....but i wont cuz that would be weird and i dont think it would help.....so yeah...guess thats all for now.....not really sure what im doing tomorrow cuz my life sucks like that....but we'll see....later...bye
<3Alex aka BUB!