just thoughts
Guys can be retarded. Now I'm not saying this is about me personally, just shit I was talking about to somebody earlier.
If a guy has somebody he is dating and so in love with why would he cheat?? especially if the girl he is going to cheat with he wont see but for a short period of time?? I dont get it, not one bit LOL. Why lose EVERYTHING you have that is so good for something that cant work out?
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I'm ready to make some big changes in my life, I now KNOW where I need to start, and am going to start making those changes very soon.
I had a depressing day but driving to Tony's tonight from clearwater I used the quite time to think about shit I'm feeling better.
There are things that I'm happy about in my life, my son is amazing and yeah i'm very insecure but there are things I like about myself as well, weird things lol like how my presence and my attitude seem very innocent but thats not always the case, I remeber just about everything anyone says so I see through alot of bullshit people talk, I never mistake kindness for weakness or stupidity, ALOT of people do this to me. and I never get to cocky about having something or someone in my life, just because somebody is good to you or does alot for you doesn't mean they wont leave at the drop of a dime if they feel the need to.
I'm just so ready to start over, meet new people, do new things, just get on with my life and leave this drama and headache behind. I'm ready to REALLY be happy, really make my son happy, I'm ready to live for just Ezra and I.
I'm exhausted and need sleep.
Cryssy I will email you my number and we can get together, I need to start meeting people who have kids lol.
If a guy has somebody he is dating and so in love with why would he cheat?? especially if the girl he is going to cheat with he wont see but for a short period of time?? I dont get it, not one bit LOL. Why lose EVERYTHING you have that is so good for something that cant work out?
.............
I'm ready to make some big changes in my life, I now KNOW where I need to start, and am going to start making those changes very soon.
I had a depressing day but driving to Tony's tonight from clearwater I used the quite time to think about shit I'm feeling better.
There are things that I'm happy about in my life, my son is amazing and yeah i'm very insecure but there are things I like about myself as well, weird things lol like how my presence and my attitude seem very innocent but thats not always the case, I remeber just about everything anyone says so I see through alot of bullshit people talk, I never mistake kindness for weakness or stupidity, ALOT of people do this to me. and I never get to cocky about having something or someone in my life, just because somebody is good to you or does alot for you doesn't mean they wont leave at the drop of a dime if they feel the need to.
I'm just so ready to start over, meet new people, do new things, just get on with my life and leave this drama and headache behind. I'm ready to REALLY be happy, really make my son happy, I'm ready to live for just Ezra and I.
I'm exhausted and need sleep.
Cryssy I will email you my number and we can get together, I need to start meeting people who have kids lol.