sick of it.
Sick of getting fatter. Sick of myself. I'll get motivated to do things, then it will melt away, fat again and lazy. So many things to do that would make me feel better, but instead i shut down and ignore everything. It's hard to stay motivated, to make anything, to find a new job. But i am sick of my own laziness. I need some sort of boot camp. I just fall into my comforts and don't want to try hard to get out of them. Just had to vent about my own self loathing. what am i going to do with mee! some things never change!!!!! ugh.