I don't know what to do
I haven't cried like that in a long time.
I will miss everything so much. I wish that I would go to sleep, and when I wake up she would be right beside me like she always is in our bed. Then I could jump on her and squeeze her cheeks together and kiss her and call her some weird name I made up. Then I would ask her if she wanted to walk around or we would watch Friends together or agrue about how much Passions was good or bad. We could drink Caramel Frappuccino's and talk about what we would start saving up for.
We were so close. So close that now I have to return a ring and get over this sadness that is going to plague me. So many memories. I love her so much. Nobody can love her like i do.
Now, I feel so very alone. I feel in a dark place and there is nobody to protect me. I feel vulnerable.
I remember when we would plan nights to take pix. It would be like 10 oclock, and we'd pull out the clothes. We'd go through about 20-30 pix, then get them on the computer or post them up on myspace.
So many pets.
Just to look at someone you love so much and know that they don't want you anymore. It hurts like....you wouldn't believe.
I wish that my doorbell would ring, and it was her. And i would let her in, and she would tell me that she changed her mind. That she doesn't want to do this. That almost 4 years is too valuable to give up and that she still loves me and give me a big hug. Ask me if i'd rather win the lottery right now, and id tell you id rather have her do that. I'd choose that over anything in the whole universe.
I'm going on about nothing, i guess. I'm a strong person, but love is so strong.
I can't sleep in my bed anymore....I dont know what i'll do.
Anthony Joseph Carella
I will miss everything so much. I wish that I would go to sleep, and when I wake up she would be right beside me like she always is in our bed. Then I could jump on her and squeeze her cheeks together and kiss her and call her some weird name I made up. Then I would ask her if she wanted to walk around or we would watch Friends together or agrue about how much Passions was good or bad. We could drink Caramel Frappuccino's and talk about what we would start saving up for.
We were so close. So close that now I have to return a ring and get over this sadness that is going to plague me. So many memories. I love her so much. Nobody can love her like i do.
Now, I feel so very alone. I feel in a dark place and there is nobody to protect me. I feel vulnerable.
I remember when we would plan nights to take pix. It would be like 10 oclock, and we'd pull out the clothes. We'd go through about 20-30 pix, then get them on the computer or post them up on myspace.
So many pets.
Just to look at someone you love so much and know that they don't want you anymore. It hurts like....you wouldn't believe.
I wish that my doorbell would ring, and it was her. And i would let her in, and she would tell me that she changed her mind. That she doesn't want to do this. That almost 4 years is too valuable to give up and that she still loves me and give me a big hug. Ask me if i'd rather win the lottery right now, and id tell you id rather have her do that. I'd choose that over anything in the whole universe.
I'm going on about nothing, i guess. I'm a strong person, but love is so strong.
I can't sleep in my bed anymore....I dont know what i'll do.
Anthony Joseph Carella