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Sorry guys if I've been a real bitch lately. Everything just has been happening to me and it seems like no one will tell me the truth anymore. And now I can't trust anyone because I tried trusing people and it got me into shit. And they wonder why I never trust them! Hmm maybe cause this is what it gets me. And it's not fair at all, I know life isn't fair, but I wish it wasn't this hard. I can't wait till next year so then I can finally get away from everything and just be who I want to be and not have to worry about my past here. I can just just forget all about it and it will be awesome. I seriously need to get some phsycic help or something. I just need to talk about my problems with someone who knows everything to do and will have suggestions on what I can do. I know I have a trusting issue but they aren't alloud to tell anyone anything. But I know my parents wouldn't get me one if I wanted one...So why even ask when they are just going to ask why I want one and try to get into my life. Ya I guess that's what parents are suppose to do but I'm not as close to my parents as some kids are. I'm close to my mom though, my dad just doesn't understand me or my life. He just needs to realize I'm a teenager and I have been for a couple years and that I don't need to be treated like a little boy. With him always telling what to do and what I should be like. How I should try out for a sport, quit acting and dancing, work out and shit. Ya I like to work out but I don't usually do it because I just feel like it, I do it because I'm mad at myself so it's better then cutting myself. So I just work at my body and it's painful now and then but it's the pain I need... Wow sorry I'm getting really off topic... It's just one of those nights where I want to vent about everything...
Well today I went to school, which was shitty because I hate it now... But Katie W made 2 CD's for me which I'm listening to right now! Oh also it was hat day (may I add I looked AWESOME today because my hat matched my outfit) But I had major hat hair and I got pissed when people took my hat off (I got REALLY PISSED) Because I would tell them not to and they would do it!
well I don't feel like writing anymore
My life is shit to sum it all up
Sorry guys if I've been a real bitch lately. Everything just has been happening to me and it seems like no one will tell me the truth anymore. And now I can't trust anyone because I tried trusing people and it got me into shit. And they wonder why I never trust them! Hmm maybe cause this is what it gets me. And it's not fair at all, I know life isn't fair, but I wish it wasn't this hard. I can't wait till next year so then I can finally get away from everything and just be who I want to be and not have to worry about my past here. I can just just forget all about it and it will be awesome. I seriously need to get some phsycic help or something. I just need to talk about my problems with someone who knows everything to do and will have suggestions on what I can do. I know I have a trusting issue but they aren't alloud to tell anyone anything. But I know my parents wouldn't get me one if I wanted one...So why even ask when they are just going to ask why I want one and try to get into my life. Ya I guess that's what parents are suppose to do but I'm not as close to my parents as some kids are. I'm close to my mom though, my dad just doesn't understand me or my life. He just needs to realize I'm a teenager and I have been for a couple years and that I don't need to be treated like a little boy. With him always telling what to do and what I should be like. How I should try out for a sport, quit acting and dancing, work out and shit. Ya I like to work out but I don't usually do it because I just feel like it, I do it because I'm mad at myself so it's better then cutting myself. So I just work at my body and it's painful now and then but it's the pain I need... Wow sorry I'm getting really off topic... It's just one of those nights where I want to vent about everything...
Well today I went to school, which was shitty because I hate it now... But Katie W made 2 CD's for me which I'm listening to right now! Oh also it was hat day (may I add I looked AWESOME today because my hat matched my outfit) But I had major hat hair and I got pissed when people took my hat off (I got REALLY PISSED) Because I would tell them not to and they would do it!
well I don't feel like writing anymore
My life is shit to sum it all up