im sorry.
I really do understand what i do wrong.
when you finally do get the chance.
see , when you finally do...
theres problem number 1 with me.
I get scared easily. Im too used of hearing that i cause so much difficulty , that when i hear that i did something wrong, i just want to automatically fix it.
I can't.
I have to let you talk...tell me what i did wrong.. understand where you're coming from.. think about how wrong i was.. then.. fix it.
slowly.
I mean it when i say I'm sorry.
I don't just throw that around so no one will be mad with me.
I say it when i know exactly what i have to do. and when i truely mean it.
please dont be mad at me anymore.
even though, you do have the right to be.
I cant keep screwing up and think that its gonna be okay.
It hurts you and i can see that.
im telling you that from now on, what you say matters .
it matters and affects how things are going to continue if theyre going to stay good.
i want to know the second i do something that bothers you , for you to be able and feel comfortable telling me. knowing that ill be okay with it and just take it in and not say anything. just work with it to myself.
things will be better.
i promise you that.
i do hope that you forgive me by my birthday.
or then that would mean , i ruined both our days.
i hope we can figure this out on Sunday.
I know we can.
I know i can be more caring.
I'm sorry.