Rip Out The Wings Of A Butterfly For Your Soul, My Love

[all_in_the_past]

uhmm
well
thing shave been okay
im not doing that great.
its always in the back of my mind.
but homecoming is this weekend and im excited.
i really am happy that ive finaly got a actual boyfriend to take me.
uhm i still dont quite know whats goingon.
i think me bea and aaron and J murph are gonna go to my house for pictures.
and then dinner with everyone once joey decides on a place.

uhmm
im definetly not as good as i was.
all the symptoms are starting to come back.
the tirednss
the droopy eyes.
and the strength it takes just to crack a smile.
i dont want to go through this again.
ive got no reason i should feel this way.
so why do i?

im dying my hair on saturday.
i dont know what color to do.
suggestions are needed

i wish i was a bird
so i could fly
far
far
far
away.