what i did and didn't do today
Last night I picked out a beautiful outfit for today...let me tell about it. I bought a new white dress at Forever 21, it has a flower on the left side, sleeveless, and made out of a silky but matte finish material. I also bought a bright red coat from Forever 21, it has the big buttons and is a wool like material. I decide to put a gray turtleneck under the dress, seeing it is cold and all, then wear black tights, and lastly my favorite gray boots. I chose my jewelry very carefully and decided on a necklace that had a pink heart in the middle and two silver ones on either side. I got out my black pearls, it helped the tights, and black watch. Lastly, to add a touch of Gwen, i placed a pink lace slip just barely visible under the bottom of the white dress. Let me tell you, I felt like ME in this outfit. It was nice to see me in the mirror and feel normal in the not so normal way.
I woke up this morning, put on jeans, a black shirt, the boots, and the red coat. Why put all that effort into nothing? why feel like me and dress to the nines with no one to notice? So I didn't. I was in normal jeans work wear. No one noticed the red coat, minus one lady. Abria noticed my heart earrings and necklace. That was it. I went to Ambers, ate junk food and watched a terrible movie. Don't get me wrong, I had much rather spend my Valentines with her than most people in this world. I was just sad I didn't get to wear my outfit and feel noticed and pretty.
I also bought you a valentimes day present. I have no idea why, I will never give it to you. I find myself doing things like that at the most inopportune times. Silly me. As cheesy as it is, you are the song I know... thank you Hawthorne Heights (yes please puke now).
I half expected my dad to call today...he didn't. Oh, on a bright note; yesterday Coriamber received an anonymous flower on her desk and I proclaimed how stupid it was because she was married and I won't get a flower! Jimmy walked by at this time and said "Kim, do you want me to bring you a flower?" And I said "YES, it's not fair". Low and behold, he actually brought me a carnation claiming to be a man of his word. No ideas here though, we aren't compatible, he has asked me and every other girl his age in our workplace out. One of "those" if you know what I mean. Still though, it was a nice gesture and at least I didn't leave the day empty handed. Cindy, a nice lady at work, also brought me a card and candy... so did a girl named Hayley. I suppose all and all it wasn't too bad. It's just a tough day because I can remember almost all valentines days, not birthdays, not christmas, but vday...yes. No need to divulge in those memories. Its 1014 for goodness sake! I must go to bed. Thank goodness tomorrow is Friday. It will be nice to have a weekend off!!!!!
I woke up this morning, put on jeans, a black shirt, the boots, and the red coat. Why put all that effort into nothing? why feel like me and dress to the nines with no one to notice? So I didn't. I was in normal jeans work wear. No one noticed the red coat, minus one lady. Abria noticed my heart earrings and necklace. That was it. I went to Ambers, ate junk food and watched a terrible movie. Don't get me wrong, I had much rather spend my Valentines with her than most people in this world. I was just sad I didn't get to wear my outfit and feel noticed and pretty.
I also bought you a valentimes day present. I have no idea why, I will never give it to you. I find myself doing things like that at the most inopportune times. Silly me. As cheesy as it is, you are the song I know... thank you Hawthorne Heights (yes please puke now).
I half expected my dad to call today...he didn't. Oh, on a bright note; yesterday Coriamber received an anonymous flower on her desk and I proclaimed how stupid it was because she was married and I won't get a flower! Jimmy walked by at this time and said "Kim, do you want me to bring you a flower?" And I said "YES, it's not fair". Low and behold, he actually brought me a carnation claiming to be a man of his word. No ideas here though, we aren't compatible, he has asked me and every other girl his age in our workplace out. One of "those" if you know what I mean. Still though, it was a nice gesture and at least I didn't leave the day empty handed. Cindy, a nice lady at work, also brought me a card and candy... so did a girl named Hayley. I suppose all and all it wasn't too bad. It's just a tough day because I can remember almost all valentines days, not birthdays, not christmas, but vday...yes. No need to divulge in those memories. Its 1014 for goodness sake! I must go to bed. Thank goodness tomorrow is Friday. It will be nice to have a weekend off!!!!!