Moving on

[all_for_you06]

The Camp interview is coming up very soon! April 1st. im ready for contact! The craft, song and game will knock'em dead! School's monday, im pretty much caught up with everything. I'll be on clear sailings very soon. I got a new job interview, Graduation in 4 months, chillin with my buddies at prom, Spring's presence....A new chapter is just right

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[gumby03]

Who are you really angry at.
It shouldn't be me, and thats why I wrote that...I may not be all innocent in this matter but I am still a person...and the way you have been recently treating me shows you have no respect for anyone but yourself. You ultimatly left the decision up to me...so what I chose what you didnt want. Why should I be bitched at by you for the choice I made. You sound like my cousins who have tantrams when they dont get their way... Why do I pay, I wish you would go back to that conversation and realize the things you were saying..you tried to make me look awful, like i wasnt even trying. You Broke my heart...and you think that its that easy to just jump right back in there.. Im sorry but it doesnt work that way. Things take time and patience obviously something you dont have. Just ask chris what Ive been talking to him about.. it was nothing bad...ever! it was someone talking to someone how things are going to fast...and being scared it would just happen again thats all..gosh
But I do appologise for one thing...and that is that I really didnt make an effort to tell you how I felt...but you know what..thats just me...I have a horrible talent on expressing my feelings..it just doesnt work..so Im sorry and if anything its probably the reason why were not on the best of terms...so thats my fault..sorry.

[gumby03]

I dont really know what to say at this time. Anything I say wont cause an effect on you. I am sorry that it had to end this way. I feel horible though I try to block it up, and I cant stop thinking about you.....us. You probably see im mixed up right now, im also sorry for that. I tend to do and do not think, that gets the best of me and it fucks me up in alot of matters. Deep down inside, I want to be number "5". Not just the guy who you say "oh...HIM! yea hes just a guy I went out with for abit. no biggy" Im lost in the dark with you and it makes me furious to maximum extents. But it really doesn't matter. I fucked up in the head! It cant go back to us ever being together. Ive dug myself deeper and deeper with every conversation that we had. I was aiming to be a buddy, and friend. Asking you how your days went, how lifes going and such. I hate it seriously that I half to argue with you just to see how your feeling. Theres not a day where I go and not think of you. Its starting to make me go mad. I think about the future. It makes me go mad and I think about us. I love it. its really the only thing that puts a smile on my face. im spilling my guts out to you and it dosn't matter anymore...

Sorry for bein a dick, catie