The Curse: I'm almost sure my romance is dead.
Ah, and its all a given. My little lovefest is dying. As usual they get to any other side of me other than chipper happy party rocker Garrett and they stop calling. The curse continues. Can anyone tell me whats wrong with me? Is my personality shitty when I'm not in a good mood? I wish I had people in my life that where here in the thick and the thin. More importantly here to care. I cant have it all I guess. I'm in no condition to come home. The people I most want to see only remind me of the choice I made, the feelings I may never have again. Tomee and Ash: togeather and happy cupple, Britt: I belive seeing someone new these days I hope for happiness to her I only wish I could be the one that makes her feel that way, Theresa: a classic case of my story but miss her to death. Everyone seems so distant. Even my friends here. I wish someone would call and cheer me up a little. This is how my story goes full circle. This is the stuff that dreams are made of and love dies from. I miss making people feel good in many ways, with my music, my touch, my care, my advice. Balence is gone. I have to run even farther to get away from this emtpy feeling. Its not that I expected anthing out of this last relationship, It just reminded me of my flaw........my curse.