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right now, theres 3 days till my birthday. its deff. ruined i just dont feel like putting on a smile anymore, i dont have the OMG OMG OMG birthday spirt this year.
with lenny like, i should have took things more seriously, bc it was such a great relashinship. i kno all i have been doing lately is complaining about the brake-up but hes the first person i have ever really cared about enough to put b4 me. i kno i tottaly screwed up and im not mature enough to just let go all at once. its just he was my excape from always being home with my dad on Friday nights and having nothing to do, he made me smile when i felt like nothing could go right, when my parents were fighting and i felt i had no one he was always there to talk, he just saved me from myself all the tyme, i mean i would sit in science at the end of school and all i could think about was hearing his voice over the phone or seeing his adorible dimpled smile.
like, i really dont wanna leave this house. its where i grew up - its everything i kno. it sucks that we have too leave, and yes i do love my new house, but as nice as it is its still never gonna replace this big grungy house. i cant phisically stay hear, and i think thats what kills me the most.
usually im fine if I have tyme to let things go b4 action is taken. and lately no one or nothing is giveing me the space/ or tyme.
i cant stand my mom, yet my dad kills me.
ill be fine, shit has been worse. im just a lil lost right now :[
AND IM OUTTA FUCKING CIG'S !!! URRRG.
Your Love Style is Manic
For you, love is the ultimate rollercoaster
And you love to hold on tight and enjoy the ride
Every time you fall in love, it feels like the first time
And while it's exciting and exhilarating...
It's also stressful and scary!
omg this thing is soooo TRUE!!
with lenny like, i should have took things more seriously, bc it was such a great relashinship. i kno all i have been doing lately is complaining about the brake-up but hes the first person i have ever really cared about enough to put b4 me. i kno i tottaly screwed up and im not mature enough to just let go all at once. its just he was my excape from always being home with my dad on Friday nights and having nothing to do, he made me smile when i felt like nothing could go right, when my parents were fighting and i felt i had no one he was always there to talk, he just saved me from myself all the tyme, i mean i would sit in science at the end of school and all i could think about was hearing his voice over the phone or seeing his adorible dimpled smile.
like, i really dont wanna leave this house. its where i grew up - its everything i kno. it sucks that we have too leave, and yes i do love my new house, but as nice as it is its still never gonna replace this big grungy house. i cant phisically stay hear, and i think thats what kills me the most.
usually im fine if I have tyme to let things go b4 action is taken. and lately no one or nothing is giveing me the space/ or tyme.
i cant stand my mom, yet my dad kills me.
ill be fine, shit has been worse. im just a lil lost right now :[
AND IM OUTTA FUCKING CIG'S !!! URRRG.
Your Love Style is Manic
For you, love is the ultimate rollercoaster
And you love to hold on tight and enjoy the ride
Every time you fall in love, it feels like the first time
And while it's exciting and exhilarating...
It's also stressful and scary!
omg this thing is soooo TRUE!!